Title:
Knight In Tattered Rags
Author:
Restive Nature
Disclaimer:
I do not own either of
these shows. All characters of Buffy belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant
Enemy. Star Wars characters and settings belong to George Lucas.
Rating:
PG-13 though for subject matter
Genre:
Crossover
Type:
Angst, hope
Pairing:
Xander/ Princess Leia, sort of
Summary:
What’s
a poor guy to do when he gets sucked into a fair Princess’ world?
Spoilers/
Time line:This fiction
takes place after my story "Making The List" written for the TtH
fic-for-all pairings. But in this story, Xander has traveled to a
time when a younger Princess Leia is around.
Feedback:
Always welcome!
Distribution:
Ask first please.
A/N:
This fiction came about for two reasons. The first was that I was
very unhappy with several incongruities between the first trilogy
George Lucas produced and then the second. This oversight was the
most annoying to me and this became my answer to fixing that.
Secondly, the first fiction “Making The List” was so well
received and I had several requests to continue the story. So here it
is. There will be a third installment some time down the road.
Knight
in Tattered Rags
Xander
watched as the Princess, known now to them as simply Leia, made the
rounds. Saying her farewells. She was again dressed in the clothes
that she had appeared before him in. The golden bikini and pretty
much transparent skirt. Dawn had been able to redo the hairstyle that
she had had, all braided up and slicked back. Leia had given her
pointers. And even as he yearned in the typical male fantastical
sense for what she was wearing, he actually preferred to seeing her
in the garb of the clothes that his friends had lent her. She was
about Willow's size, so Willow had lent her some skirts and tops and
the girls had politely bought her some undergarments on a quick
impromptu shopping trip the morning after she had appeared.
Explaining
everything to the world weary and wary group had gone down quickly.
Leia, Xander knew, had been surprised at their quick and easy
acceptance, not only of the situation, but of her. She had made
friends with them all, and when Willow had studied the situation, was
only dismayed at the amount of time that it would take to return her
to her friends, her world, her universe. But with constant
reassurance, that Willow would be able to return her to the precise
moment that that old bastard had stolen her away, and that damn Santa
would never have to put anything in his stockings again (!), she had
relaxed and looked upon her time there as a vacation.
Dawn
had spent quite a bit of time, trying to cajole the princess into
staying longer. Leia had seemed to instinctively recognize Dawn's
need for attention and validation and they regularly sat together,
just the two of them, sipping on the hot cocoa that Leia had
developed a fondness for, while giggling over Dawn's little secrets
and some of the things that Leia had shared with Dawn about her life.
How she grew up, the trials she faced, both funny and heartbreaking.
Xander felt a pang, remembering that. The last time he had seen Dawn
giggling like an actual schoolgirl, instead of the close
approximation of one, was back when Tara was alive. And he knew that
Willow saw it too, from the way she would hover in the doorway,
watching them, a wistful half smile on her face.
For
Xander, he was relieved that Dawn had someone to bond with, though
his heart clenched a little when he realized that it was only
temporary. But he also recognized the fact that Leia had needed this
too. Upon discovering that she was a Princess, the gang had pressed
her for her life story. The places she spoke of, were unfamiliar of
course. But the story was close enough to touch their hearts,
especially when she spoke of her mother. Joyce's death, only a few
years previous, had wounded them all grievously, but none as badly as
Buffy, since it always seemed to hover in Dawn's mind, that she
wasn't quite real enough to have the same real bond, despite her
blood ties to the Summer's.
It
was to Buffy that Leia spoke most about her mother and Buffy had
eventually opened up to sharing stories of Joyce. When Buffy shared
how difficult it had been to finally tell her mother about her
destiny, not that they really explained that to Leia, just an
overview of helping girls in need, which she accepted the face value
of, it was then that Leia revealed that she was actually adopted.
Everyone
was quite surprised and Leia explained that her birth mother had died
almost immediately after giving birth to her and her father, her
adoptive father, that was, knowing that his wife had always wanted a
little girl, had used his ambassadorial privileges to take her while
the adoption procedure was rushed through. She had been loved, she
assured them, as if she were their own. Losing the only mother she
had known as a teenager had been a terrible blow, but her adopted
father loved her as dearly as his wife had. It had been he that had
been strong, keeping her memory and grace alive. Giving Leia a
template of what a woman and princess should be.
And
as she grew, she eventually took on more of the duties that her
father could give her, while working for the betterment of their
universe. Buffy had liked that and wanted to adopt it for their
slogan. The others had voted her down, Xander remembered with
amusement. Leia had first dibs and since they only worked on a global
level, that had to be enough. Buffy had pouted for all of two seconds
before her interest was regained when Leia asked about the kinds of
tools they used for self-defense.
Xander
had to admit, that as Princess' went, Leia was not snobbish at all,
like one would expect. She was warm and vital and amazingly good at
reading people. She had all of them pegged. But at the end of the
day, it was easy to see her yearning for what she had left behind.
And
now, today was finally the day. Willow had gathered the ingredients
for the spell she needed, the stars or planets or some such were
aligned for the return trip. And Leia was bouncing slightly on the
balls of her feet.
“Okay,
now,” Willow instructed as she poured a barrier of purple sand
around where the princess stood. “Try and remember exactly what was
going on when you disappeared, you know, as a, as a well, just
remember and try and hang on to that okay?”
The
princess nodded, amusement mixed with trepidation and Xander directed
an encouraging grin at her as she gave everyone a small wave and then
straightened her bare shoulders.
There
was a pang in Xander's chest for just the slightest second that
they'd met yet another person that had had to grow up way to fast. Of
course, Leia didn't have to deal with apocalypses like they did. But
still, who did? He could hear Willow chanting now. At the same time
though, dealing with a war that spanned the universe? It was a
thought that made his brain hurt. The chanting was growing and Xander
smiled, more gently this time. At least Leia had had a good
childhood. Before all the chaos she had, sort of currently, found
herself embroiled in. It was too bad he mused, as a light began to
grow in luminescence around the Princess, that he couldn't have met
her when she was younger. He bet she had been as cute as a button.
A
sudden pain in his chest, his skin stretching, pulling and Willow's
startled exclamation were the last things that he remembered before
his universe went black.
*****
Consciousness
came back slowly. Feeling was the first to return, realizing that he
was laying on a hard, cold surface. And the pounding in his head.
Xander tried to muffle a groan, having leaned from experience on the
Hellmouth that crying out only led the bad things right to you. Light
was next as his eyes fluttered open and he was nearly blinded by the
light right above him. So he expediently closed his eyes once more
and concentrated on what else he could tell about what was going on
around him.
As
things began to clear around him, he could hear a conversation going
on, but it wasn't one that made sense to him.
“...
can't find three pee oh anywhere,” a male's voice was worrying. His
voice was soothing and Xander appreciated that, especially when the
other voice responded. Female, he realized right away. And sort of
familiar. But pained sounding.
“I
don't think we can wait!” she wailed.
“Calmly
milady,” the male soothed again and Xander could hear movement, but
from what his limited sense told him, they weren't close. As in right
on top of him.
“Do
you think he did something with him?” the female panted and Xander
wondered what he's, the plural of them, were being referenced. If
maybe he was one of the he's in question.
“I
could not say for sure milady,” the male sounded bemused now and
then concerned. “Are you sure you wouldn't like to lay down
,perhaps?”
“It
hurts Obi-wan,” the female complained. “No, I can't.”
And
then Xander definitely heard the sounds of weeping. And then
something clicked in his mind. He knew that name. “Obi-wan,” he
murmured and then recalled, “...Kenobi.”
“He
knows me?” the male seemed surprised and Xander could definitely
hear the suspicion that had crept into the male's voice.
Realizing
that he could no longer play possum, Xander groaned and sat up,
shaking his head a lot clearer now. “I don't know you,” he
groused as he stretched a little to get the kinks out of his back. He
suddenly had some sort of idea what had probably happened and Willow
and magic going kerflooey were at the top of his very limited list.
“And the last I'd heard, you were dead.” He turned slightly to be
confronted by the sight of a very heavily pregnant woman and a young
man staring at him. “And a lot older. She definitely said you were
older. And her dad's friend. So I'm guessing
it's either your father whom you were named after or things went more
kerflooey than usual?”
Unfortunately,
his completely logical statement to them just seemed to confuse them
anymore. Well, it had been logical to him. Xander, with a sigh, began
to regain his feet, slowly and then held his hands up to show them
that he was no threat. He saw the male, Obi-wan, following him with
hawk eyes and even the pained cry of his female companion did not
draw his eyes away.
“Ouch,”
Xander sympathized with her, wincing. “Let me guess? Labor pains.”
The woman shot him a miserable glare and Xander smiled tersely. “You
could try panting and slow your breathing down. Otherwise you'll
hyperventilate and pass out. And that's no fun, trust me.”
“You
know of delivering children?” Obi-wan asked suddenly, his face
wearing a calculating look.
“Obi-wan,
no!” the woman protested, clutching at the guy's robe sleeve.
“Know
of, yes,” Xander hedged. “Took a course to learn about it, but
I've never actually had to help with one,” he explained,
remembering vaguely, the courses that he took in first aid during
high school. Now in the face of the situation, that seemed like an
awful long way off.
“But
you actually know what one is to do in a situation such as this?”
Obi-wan pressed. Xander shrugged helplessly.
“Usually
lots of pain medication and a licensed doctor is what you want, but
yeah, I know the basics.”
“Obi-wan,”
the woman protested again, but she had unconsciously started
following Xander's advice, panting in between her contractions.
“Milady,”
the young man spoke authoritatively, “with threepio gone, there is
no one else. I have no knowledge of what to do, how to help. I must
pilot the shuttle craft. We will not have any other help for several
hours. By then...”
“Threepio?”
Xander asked, confused. Was that someone's name, it seemed familiar
as well.
“Our
android,” Obi-wan answered, not moving his eyes from the woman who
let out a keening cry. “Not that he had experience either,”
Obi-wan suddenly smiled at Xander. “But at least he too, knew what
to do.”
“All
right then,” Xander decided with a resigned sigh, starting to roll
up his sleeves of his sweater. And as he did so, he took a good look
around and realized that when Obi-wan said shuttle craft, he wasn't
talking prototype or like a bus or something. “Are we in space?”
he asked, his eyes wide. Both of the others nodded and Xander blinked
owlishly at them before shrugging. “Okay, not my normal mode of
travel, but what they hey. It'll be a nice story.”
He
approached the woman and Obi-wan moved back a little, ceding his spot
to Xander. Xander held his hands out before him. “Okay, look lady,
I remember that unless something is wrong, I'm pretty much supposed
to let you do this yourself. But I will have to... check? You know
what I mean?”
“Check?”
she gasped out.
“Um
yeah,” Xander blushed and gestured at her stomach and then glancing
away, pointed downwards.
“Oh,”
she sighed and then gasped again. “Oh!”
When
Xander realized that she was reacting in the second gasp, to
something with her labor, he remembered more information. He turned
to look at Obi-wan. “Do you have something that you keep time by?”
The
young man simply nodded and turned away for a moment before trying to
hand Xander a slim, compact black and blue square.
“No,
you keep that,” Xander instructed. “Do you know how far apart the
contractions are?”
“I
didn't think to...” Obi-wan admitted. “They seem to be very close
together.”
“Okay,
let's see how close,” Xander nodded. “That's a good indication of
how close she is to actually pushing the baby out. Lady, you'll have
to tell us when your next few contractions are.”
“Padme,”
the woman panted out. “My name,” she offered and Xander nodded.
“Padme
then,” he smiled as gently as he could. “My name is Xander.
Really wishing if we had to meet it could've been under much
different circumstances.” To his credit, that got a small smile out
of her. “Okay, next question, has your water broken?”
“Yes,
quite some time ago,” she answered. “Oh, now,” she directed and
it was very obvious what she was referring to as her back arched
again.
“Pant,”
Xander instructed and feeling only slightly foolish, demonstrated.
“Hee hee hee, hoooo.” He ignored their strange looks and repeated
himself until Padme copied him. When her contraction eased off
finally, she looked surprised.
“That
seemed... better,” she sighed. Xander nodded and patted at her
knee.
“Okay,”
he grinned. “I'm guessing by the way you're reacting that this is
your first kid?”
“Children,
actually,” Obi-wan supplied and went on, ignoring Xander's suddenly
panicked look. “Our android was able to ascertain that she is
carrying twins.
“Hoo
boy,” Xander felt slightly faint, but Padme gasped again and
stiffened. “Ah crap,” he muttered, realizing that she was beyond
just simple labor. “I need to look!”
Obi-wan
stepped back, startled as Padme just nodded frantically, grasping
anything within her reach. Xander, realizing that she was on some
sort of platform, helped her scoot back to where she could lay down.
Throwing modesty out the window, he reached under her very thin gown
and took a quick glance. What he saw was an image that he would try
very, very hard to forget when this was done. Normal everyday
carpenters were not meant to see this!
Pulling
his head back, but leaving his hands where they were he turned to
this Obi-wan. “I need towels, blankets, anything you have to wrap a
baby in, hot water and if you have a syringe to suction out the kids
nose and mouth. And we'll need something to cut the umbilical cord
with. Now!”
To
his credit, the man didn't question Xander at all, but scrambled to
retrieve what he could in their limited space. Xander turned back to
the laboring woman and smiled reassuringly. Luckily, certain things
were coming back. Thank you living in a house with a predominant
number of women who loved watching e.r. Reruns.
“Padme?”
he called, but she was shaking her head, oblivious to her
surroundings. He called her name again, louder this time until she
focused on him. “Do you feel the urge to push?”
“Yes.
No. I don't know!” she cried out, confused, the pain obviously
being too much for her equilibrium.
Xander
realized instantly that one of the things he remembered being warned
about in his class, so very long ago, was absolutely true. Same as
for the rest of life. This woman, Padme, was in an unknown situation,
giving birth for the first time and because she didn't know exactly
what to expect, she was panicking. He kept the smile on his face,
reaching for all the patience and solidy shoulders he had developed
from many years of dealing with whatever the Hellmouth had thrown at
him.
“Padme?”
he began, watching as her head thrashed, not violently, but more like
she didn't have a clue how to escape the pain. And that was perhaps
the problem. She needed a grip on some reality and there wasn't any
choice about it. “Padme,” he barked, and her eyes focused on him.
“You need to stop fighting the pain. There's nothing you can do to
stop it. Feed into it. Focus on it and understand it. Then we can
work with it instead of against it okay?” He was immensely relieved
when she nodded minutely. “Keep panting, nice and slow.”
Xander
turned his head as Obi-wan returned with a bundle in his hands. He
put the items within easy reach for Xander and tried to smile
reassuringly, but Xander could read easily the worry in the other
man's eyes. “Do you absolutely need to be shuttling this hunk of
metal?” was the first question out of Xander's mouth.
The
older man nodded. “I will need to periodically check the
autopilot,” Obi-wan sighed. “We have co-ordinates to head to,
but...”
“I'm
gonna need whatever help you can give me,” Xander interrupted.
“It'd be a good idea if she had something to hold onto, because
this is happening now.”
The
dark blond man's face tightened. “Are you sure?” Xander nodded
slowly. Oh yeah, he was quite sure.
“She's
crowning,” he explained, remembering the term from class and from
various chick flicks that the girls had forced him to endure over the
years. He saw the question and hurried to say, “that means the
first babies head is just about out. I can see the top of it. How
long has she been having pain?”
“It's
been several hours,” Obi-wan admitted. He threw a glance at the
lady, panting and moaning on the platform. “She was... injured and
told me that she had been having pains before that. I... do not know
if the injury exacerbated the normal progression of her labor or
caused it.”
“Could
be either,” Xander sighed. And then another memory surfaced. “When
her water broke, was there any, um...” he searched his mind for the
word, but it eluded him in that moment. “Was the water clear?”
“There
was some blood with it,” the man admitted, “but otherwise clear.
Is that...?” he started to ask and then his eyes darted to the
pained woman, obviously hearing their conversation, her eyes
beseeching of them. Xander knew what they wanted to know.
“That's
completely normal in a regular birth,” he told them quickly. “I
just needed to make sure there wasn't anything else because sometimes
there are things that the baby can swallow that makes them sick. But
you didn't see any. It's all good.” He smiled down at Padme,
touching her knee. Then addressed them both. “On the next
contraction, Padme, you need to sit up and push. Obi-wan, you'll have
to support her. Oh and don't let her have any more than two fingers
to squeeze.” At Obi-wan's puzzlement, he tried to wipe the grin off
his face. “She'll break your hand man.”
Padme
cried out again and they could see that she was struggling to do as
Xander had instructed her. Obi-wan rushed to get behind her, even as
he glanced towards the cockpit. The older man slid in deftly behind
Padme, bracing her and Xander shoved sweat dampened material out of
his way. “All right, Padme, hold your breath and bear down when I
tell you. I'm gonna count you through this, with the contractions.
Tell me when the next one comes. Then a big breath. Can you do that?”
She
nodded tiredly and then her back arched again. “Oh now!” she let
out a strangled half scream.
“Big
breath!” Xander reminded her and once she had it, he was extremely
pleased that her body seemed to find an instinctive course, her chin
ducking down, her hands gripping her knees, hunching her body over
and he began counting, slowly. “One... two... three...,” watching
with a slight grimace of distaste as the little knot of hair that he
had seen before emerged again, along with a little more head
appearing. “Four... good, keep pushing, six... seven... eight...
nine aaand ten!”
Her
breath came out with a whoosh and she fell back against Obi-wan.
Xander was only slightly surprised as the head slipped back inside a
little, but eh, it was a process. He glanced up at them. “Okay,
we're going to keep doing like that until the head is out. That's the
hard part. Then I'm going to ease the shoulder out, one at a time,
then baby is gonna slip right out. We'll get you there Padme.”
She
nodded slowly and Xander could see tears leaking from her eyes. Too
many reasons why she would be and all of them so totally legitimate
that it wasn't worth mentioning. And then she was gasping, arching
again. Xander turned his attention back to the baby and began his
count at her deep breath. He was relieved that now that she was on
her course, that she seemed to have started listening to her
instincts instead of panicking and fighting. It was making his job a
whole helluva lot easier.
They
repeated the process several times until at last Xander saw a tiny
face emerge, turned in towards it's mother's leg. “Okay Padme,
stop! Stop pushing. Head is out!” he commanded and the woman cried
out. Xander, supporting the infants head since it had none of it's
own, reached with his other hand to clear the viscous mucous and
other disgust inducing material from it's nose and mouth. Wiping his
hand on the nearby towel, he searched until he found just as he'd
asked for, an aspirator and with as gentle as motions as he could
manage, cleared out some more mucous. There was a small cry from the
infant as he did that, one that the other people in the silence could
hear and Padme cried out, a strangled laugh.
Xander
would have laughed with her, but knew they were far from done,
especially as he felt the pressure of the baby against his hands.
“Padme don't push!” he reminded her and she struggled to obey
him. With a moue of dislike, he braced himself mentally and reached a
hand in to feel what he was working with and felt one little shoulder
higher than the other. He winced as he eased it out, but the infant
made no protest. And then swifter than he could rationalize or
realize, his hands were full of squirming infant. “It's a boy!”
he announced, as proud as if he were actually the father and the
infant shuddered at the probably cold feel of the platform. Which
made sense Xander
realized, when compared to the warmth of his
mother. The sudden squalling cry seemed to reassure his mother and
Padme was crying and laughing in the same moment.
Quickly
Xander retrieved the towel and then realized he had a dilemma. He
glanced up at Obi-wan. “Do you have any clamps? Something to tie
off the cord before we cut it?”
The
older man, obviously in awe at the proceedings around him, nodded and
then smiled, pride shining in his eyes. “Yes,” he agreed and then
glanced down at Padme. “Should I?” he gestured at the woman and
Xander nodded.
“You
can ease her down,” he offered. “The next one shouldn't be for a
few minutes, if not longer. Twins don't always come one right after
the other. Hey, I remembered that.” Obi-wan nodded and after easing
out from behind Padme, making sure that she wouldn't fall back,
hurried to retrieve the requested items. He returned in short order
and watched over Xander's shoulder as Xander applied the clips as
best he could before reaching for the knife, that he expertly tested
with his thumb.
“He
is beautiful, milady,” Obi-wan smiled. “Very strong.”
“Luke,”
she breathed out and Xander's head came up sharply. He knew that name
too.
“Skywalker?”
he asked and there was a moment of panicked indecision that he saw
easily pass between the two. “It doesn't matter,” he declaimed,
knowing and understanding secrets and the need to keep them. “Lady
I talked to, she knew a Luke Skywalker. Grew up on uh,” he
struggled to recall the name of the place Leia had said. “Tatooine,”
he finally remembered. “With his aunt and uncle. Probably someone
else. But Luke's a good name.”
The
other two were extremely quiet as Xander cleaned off the baby and he
wasn't so unobservant that he didn't notice the furtive glances that
they were back to exchanging. At last, he was able to wrap up the
squirming child that had settled down and was now regarding
everything around him with a solemnity that seemed strange to Xander.
He had always thought babies pretty much slept or ate or pooped. Not
regarded the people around it like they were trying to remember the
secrets of life. With an unconscious smile on his face, he stepped
carefully to Padme's side. Her arms were already reaching for her
son.
He
laid Luke down with her and before he could remind her to support the
babies head, she had twisted herself so that the baby was nestled
properly in the crook of her arm. Her other hand crossed her stomach
to sweep a long finger over Luke's cheek as the baby cooed softly.
Xander felt a sort of warmth bubbling up inside himself and he rested
his dried hand on the top of her head.
“Congratulations
Lady Padme,” he offered. “He looks good.”
“He
does, doesn't he?” she agreed in a wispy voice, slightly weak.
“Everything is well with him?”
“I
think so,” Xander nodded. “Where I'm from, our medical
professionals use a scale of numbers to like, assess the babies
conditions. I don't remember it, but his breathing, color and
awareness are all good. But how do you feel?”
“Strange,”
Padme admitted, her eyes now only on her son as Xander had reassured
her.
“Okay,”
Xander grinned, knowing it was a foolish grin, but his sense of
accomplishment at dealing with this unusual situation was at an all
time high. “But any more contractions yet? Or anything?”
The
woman's brows furrowed slightly and then she shook her head. “Some
pain in my back, but that has been a constant problem these last few
weeks.”
“Okay,”
Xander nodded along with her, noting that Obi-wan was back from a
quick check in the cockpit and was stroking a hand over his beard,
with his other hand crossed under his elbow and resting on the
opposite side. “Just be aware that it'll probably start up again
soon. Don't want Luke in the way when you're in pain here.” He
waited for Padme's acknowledgment of his words before he turned away,
sensing that now that he knew they had some time, that Obi-wan would
want to talk.
The
older man also seemed to know that they couldn't go far, leading
Xander to a chair and offering him a beverage after Xander had
cleaned his hands off in a more thorough manner. They both kept
glancing towards Padme, assessing her and the coming situation.
“So
what did you need to ask me?” Xander opened, after quenching his
sudden thirst with a beverage that he would have called water, but
for the fact that it tasted clearer and purer than any he could
recall having in his life. They must have a hell of a filtration
system on this space ship.
Obi-wan
had the faintest trace of a smile on his face. But he calmed quickly.
“I do not understand why this has happened.” He held his hand up
to forestall any comments Xander could make. “I am referring to the
disturbance I felt in the Force that presaged your arrival.”
“A
disturbance... in the... Force?” Xander repeated, squinting at the
older man. “What exactly does that mean?” he wondered.
“A
disturbance in the natural order of the balance of our universe,”
Obi-wan offered slowly, watching Xander carefully. Xander understood
what Obi-wan was saying, but he wanted to take a moment to get things
ordered in his mind.
“And
you're a... practitioner of this Force?” he asked gently. Obi-wan
did not give any sign of confirmation or denial, but there was a
sense that grew around him, a feeling that swelled up and Xander felt
the hairs on the back of his neck stood up. Kind of like... Yeah, now
that he really thought about it, this guy sort of embodied some of
the senses like those of Xander's more... powerful friends. “Okay,”
Xander nodded suddenly. “I'm thinking I understand pretty much,
what happened here.”
“You
do?” it was Obi-wan's turn to look confused and Xander smiled
before taking another sip of his drink.
“It's
no big,” Xander shrugged one shoulder. “See, what happened was...
where I come from?” he began and Obi-wan nodded patiently, waiting.
“There was a being that was powerful enough to cause a disturbance
in this Force. Except we don't call it that. To us, it's magic. The
balance of life energies that bind the universe into a cohesive
whole?”
“Yes,”
Obi-wan smiled. “A rather simple explanation of it, but yes.”
There was another small noise from the infant and both men's heads
swiveled around to check that all was well. Padme seemed to be
lightly dozing, but Luke was in no danger of falling.
“Anyway,”
Xander continued, “as I was saying, there was this guy. He sort of
interfered in the natural order of things to manipulate things to the
way he thought they should be and he ended up... well, to use your
terms, disrupting the order.” Xander sighed.
This
was going to be slightly more difficult than he thought. He wasn't
sure how much information to share, because there were suspicions
that were starting to form in his mind, now that the first rush of
panic and need were over. But then, with Obi-wan calmly waiting for
him to continue, he decided to forge ahead. “Now, a very close
friend of mine is also a practitioner of this type of magic. She's
learned through the years that she has to be very careful when she
decides how and when to use the magics.”
Obi-wan
was smiling and nodding along with that, stroking his beard again.
“Is she very young?” he asked softly. Xander shook his head.
“My
age,” he told him and then chuckled. “Which might seem young in
comparison, but we were forced to deal with things that were very...
difficult and we all ended up growing up more quickly than other
people.” Obi-wan tilted his head regardingly and then quieted
again. “Anyways Wills, Willow,” he corrected himself, “discovered
the exact nature of the disturbance and instead of just ripping the
fabric of the order apart to correct the mistake, she had to wait
until everything was more aligned to... is this making any sense to
you?” he demanded suddenly and it was Obi-wan's turn to chuckle.
“Some,”
he admitted. “Although I am curious as to what nature this
disturbance was,” he offered truthfully. Xander hemmed and hawed
for a moment before deciding upon the truth.
“Okay,”
he grunted, “I don't know what mythology you have, or if you have
any at all,” he mumbled at the confusion in the other man's eyes at
the unfamiliar word. He waved one hand. “Doesn't matter. That first
being I spoke of? We call him Santa Claus.”
“I've
not heard that name,” Obi-wan offered. “But I doubt it
signifies.” Xander nodded.
“Okay,
well he was the one that decided to disrupt the order,” Xander
swallowed heavily. “I... recently lost someone that I... loved
dearly. She was killed,” he spoke softly, regretfully of Anya.
“Santa decided that I needed a new... companion.”
He
knew that Obi-wan was shocked. Any civilized person wold be, but the
other man hid it well.
“Unfortunately,”
Xander forced himself to smile and joke through the heartache, as he
always did, “the old bastard forgot to take into account that most
regular people don't kidnap young women from other worlds and deposit
them on someone's bed as a gift for being a good boy.”
“Despicable,”
Obi-wan agreed mildly. “I take it you and this young woman objected
to this?”
“Oh...
just to a factor of like a billion,” Xander dead-panned and
received a wry smile from Obi-wan. He sighed. “As soon as we
figured out what had happened, we went to my friend Willow and she
did the research and figured out what spell to use with the magics to
send her back to her time and place.”
“Was
that place supposed to be here?” Obi-wan asked, his brow furrowing
once more.
“Not
unless this Three pee oh that you mentioned looked like a nubile
young girl in a slave get-up that was undercover in Jabba the Hut's
palace on Tatooine,” Xander quipped and instead of bringing
confusion to Obi-wan's face, it actually seemed to clear some worries
the man obviously had.
“No,
no he didn't,” Obi-wan confirmed Xander's thought. “But you said
some other things...”
“Yeah,”
Xander sighed. “And I'm thinking that there was a big snafu with
the spell that Wills did that kind of sucked me in.” He held up a
hand when Obi-wan would have spoken. “Look, I'm starting to think
that instead of just the place, I've been thrown through time too
here and I have watched way too much Star Trek and other sci-fi
classics to think that telling you what the future holds is a good
idea. I mean, the heads up is nice. And I just realized that I've
really already said too much.”
Obi-wan
chuckled then. “You mean in regards to having been named after my
father, who was much older and died?”
Xander
winced slightly and then sagged. “You weren't named after your
father, were you?” Obi-wan shook his head in the negative. “Uh,
is there any way that you can forget I said that?”
“Probably
not,” Obi-wan shrugged one shoulder. “But I also will not press
for details that you obviously don't feel comfortable sharing. Should
not the baby be crying or... or feeding?” he asked suddenly,
turning in his seat and Xander had to smile. He looked as well and
both mother and son were dozing, although Padme was moving
uncomfortably in her sleep.
“Nah,”
Xander shook his head, waving one hand dismissively. “They both
worked real hard to get through that labor. They need the rest. He'll
be hungry later though.” Obi-wan nodded and turned back to regard
Xander, bemused and slightly sad.
“I
must admit, it is a relief,” he spoke slowly, “that if it were
indeed me, that your friend knew, that I have many years left
apparently. I suppose I would wish to know...”
“You
were protecting people,” Xander supplied and then bit at the tip of
his tongue as Obi-wan sighed and relaxed further.
Obi-wan
began stroking at his beard once more as he regarded Xander. Though
it seemed to Xander that he was almost looking through him. Sorta
like Giles did when he was contemplating something semi-smart that
Xander might have accidentally uttered when he was younger. Finally
he smiled.
“I
must say, ruminating on your earlier words,” Obi-wan began, “I've
not had experience with, how did you put it? Time travel.” He
puckered his lips slightly and then chuckled. “To this point it was
not something I've thought of and thinking of it now, no idea how it
would be accomplished.”
“Not
a lot of people do,” Xander nodded. “Usually, from what I
understand, it's usually just a plot by writer's or others to get a
person where they want them to be.” Obi-wan nodded as well. “But
we, my group and I have had experience with it before. Or, I guess we
have,” he sighed and then leaned forward to rest his elbows on his
thighs. “Does it count when it's a person from an alternate
dimension from the future?”
“Are
you speaking of yourself?” Obi-wan teased and then sobered
immediately. “Alternate dimensions?”
Uh
huh,” Xander grinned. “Like, well, what happened was Willow and
Anya were trying to retrieve a lost item of Anya's and they opened a
small portal. This was of course, back before Willow realized the
scope of her powers and her need to control her actions better,” he
explained with no little amount of pain. The other man nodded in
sympathy and understanding. “Anyway, instead of finding the lost
necklace, they brought back Will's doppleganger.”
“A
doppleganger?” Obi-wan sucked in his breath. “A being that can
mimic the look of another?”
“Eh,
no,” Xander hedged. “More like it looks exactly like and maybe
acts exactly like the original, but they aren't the same person. Like
twins that weren't born of the same parents.”
“What
an amazing phenomenon,” Obi-wan breathed out. There was some
beeping from the console at the front of the craft and he quickly
excused himself to check on it. While he was doing that, Xander snuck
over to check on Padme and Luke. At his hand on her forehead, Padme's
eyes slowly came open and Xander could see that she was struggling to
focus on him.
“How
are we doing?” he asked softly.
“Mmm,
tired,” she murmured, and then looked startled. “Luke?”
“Sleeping
peacefully, right next to you,” Xander was quick to assure her.
“Rest as much as you can for the next round Padme.” Assured that
her son was well, Padme nodded and seemed to drift off again. Xander
returned to his seat and was quickly followed by Obi-wan.
“There
was some unexpected debris,” the older man explained as he settled
into his chair. “The computer was just correcting the course.”
“Good
to know,” Xander grinned.
“Now,”
Obi-wan continued, obviously picking up the thread of their
conversation, “I was ruminating on what you just told me. This
friend of yours, Willow?” Xander nodded at the name. “She was
able to correct the mistake. Would she be willing to do so again? Or
will she even know...?”
“Oh,
she'll know I'm gone,” Xander nodded and then sighed.
“Unfortunately, she might go off the deep end. She has a tendency
to do that when her friends are in trouble.”
“Oh,
that does not seem to bode well,” Obi-wan worried, leaning forward
then. But Xander waved his hand quickly.
“No,
no,” he shook his head. “I mean, yes, Willow will freak out and
come up with all sorts of immediate plans to get me back. But I'm
fairly certain that calmer heads will prevail. See, Le- the woman we
knew, she was a stranger. We grew to be friends while she was with
us, but there's a...”
“Distance?”
Obi-wan suggested carefully and Xander grinned.
“Yeah,
like a slight barrier and you know, we weren't on the side of our
friend had just disappeared with no word or notice and no clue as to
where. Probably like that woman's friends were,” he explained and
Obi-wan was nodding now. “What will most likely happen is that Will
and my friends will panic, run around like chickens with their heads
cut off for a while and then calm down to get to work. Wills will
figure out how to get me back after she finds where I went, and it'll
take the time it takes.” He finished with a heavy sigh.
“Which
means, much like this new woman you befriended, you may well be with
us for some time.”
“Maybe,”
Xander shrugged awkwardly. “I mean, I don't know precisely what
we're dealing with here. Different time, different dimension. I don't
know how time works, if it's going to be the same amount of time
passing now that it is there. It's all, gonna give me a headache,”
he muttered.
“Then
it would seem most prudent to do what you need to, and be prepared
for your leaving at any time,” Obi-wan decided. “You said that
the woman was returned to her home time and place, on Tatooine. Yet
you arrived here, not anywhere near Tatooine and I... sense that this
time of yours was... earlier than hers?”
“Um,
that, uh... might have had something to do with me,” Xander winced.
“I uh, was thinking about certain things and I think it may have
influenced where I landed. But I didn't do it on purpose!” he
hastened to assure the other man. But Obi-wan had gone back to
stroking the beard covering his chin and was staring at the prone
form of the Lady and her child. Xander could almost see the
supposition and understanding creeping into the other man's eyes.
With a gentle smile, Obi-wan turned back to Xander.
“You
do indeed have much knowledge that we should be careful of,” he
decided. “Therefore, I believe that it might be best for you to be
delivered to another member of my order. I do not know if he has
familiarity of a situation like yours, but he is wise and we will
both commune with the Force to find an answer.”
Xander
nodded, though it pretty much sounded to him that Obi-wan and his
friend were pretty much just gonna sit down and pray for help. Not
that that was a bad thing. Willow sort of had to do the same thing
for the big spells. Praying to various gods or goddesses for their
permission or help or whatever.
“This
meets with your approval?” Obi-wan questioned softly. Xander gave
him a small smile.
“I
was just thinking my way through some things,” he explained. “Wills
does the same thing. Supplicating herself before the powers that be
to ask for their help with the big stuff. And if it's their will,
then it happens. If not, she has to find another way.”
“And
the little things?” Obi-wan asked with a professional seeming
courtesy.
“I
wouldn't know,” Xander shrugged and then turned to check on Padme,
who was twitching her legs slightly and frowning in her doze. He
wondered if her next part of laboring out Luke's twin was gearing up.
“Ever since she took up practicing, she's had trouble. But she
never explained the process to me, in a way that I understood it.
Just the end result that she wanted.” He smiled then. “I do
remember that she told me once that she had to center herself, and
master her emotions even to do the simplest of things. Like float
things, or...make trades... or Oh!” he startled himself as the
thought flashed in his mind.
“You've
thought of something?” Obi-wan asked after a moment, both men
waiting to see if Xander's sudden outburst had disturbed mother or
child.
“I
have,” Xander nodded. “You said that your android thingy,
Three-pee...?”
“C-3P0,
yes,” Obi-wan supplied for him.
“You
said that he disappeared, right when I appeared,” Xander
expostulated. “And that can be a consequence of the magics being
used. I've seen it before.”
“A
trade?” Obi-wan frowned pensively.
“Exactly,”
Xander grinned as he reached for a few of the items on the table. He
switched their positions and looked up. “To keep balance. You don't
get something for nothing. There's always a price.”
“And
you've seen this before?” Obi-wan wondered.
“A
few years ago, uh, my time, not yours, obviously,” Xander almost
confused himself, but Obi-wan smirked gently and nodded for him to
continue. “Okay, my friend Buffy needed answers. We were given a
package that could provide those answers. She was told that she must
see, rather than hear. That if she chose to go see, there would be a
trade made. To keep the balance. Well, she went and this uh, well,”
he sighed, thinking over how much information was too much. “Buffy's
a warrior and when she went through that portal, a warrior from that
place was sent to us.”
“I
see,” Obi-wan nodded. “Does it need to be of like value always?”
he wondered. “C-3P0 was the only one aboard that had any notion
what to do with milady's birthing crisis and yet you have the precise
information we needed. More than what the android knew to do.”
“Oh,
that's not actually something I do all the time,” Xander dismissed
that thought. “Every student in the place that I lived, we were
required in our schooling to take a course of first aid and that
includes helping women give birth. It's really not as extensive as an
obstetrician, our word for the doctor or healer that helps pregnant
women give birth, would get. Just the basics really.”
“You
mentioned doctors before,” Obi-wan agreed. “But it makes sense to
me that you wouldn't have been put in this time and place if the
Force didn't need you here for some reason.”
There
was a soft cry from Padme and the pair turned to her, to see her
slightly feverish eyes trying to focus on baby Luke, still sleeping,
cradled in the crook of her arm.
“You
might be right,” Xander agreed with a murmur, stories of Leia's
youth sounding in his mind once more as he rose to help the woman
that was her birth mother.
*****
The
second go around with Padme's labor seemed to go much easier this
time. She knew what to expect and was even ready for it when she
finally was woken from her exhausted slumber. Realizing it was
coming, Obi-wan found a safe place to keep Luke. Dry and warm, the
baby returned to his slumber, though his mother and sister were in no
position to do so. Xander, experience through enforcement, was still
no less grossed out by the experience, but when he helped Padme
deliver the little girl, things started to go wrong.
So
horribly wrong.
And
yet Xander wondered if it was meant all along. He couldn't help the
smile on his face as he cradled the baby girl, bringing her to
Padme's side, as she manage to turn her head, smiling as she
whispered out her daughter's name. “Leia...”
“As
beautiful as her mother,” Xander whispered back, the pride and joy
as nearly immense as her own. But with a gasp, Padme's eyes slid shut
and Obi-wan, behind her, gave a small startled exclamation. In micro
seconds, Xander realized what Obi-wan pronounced with fear.
“She's...
dying?” he asked, worry coloring his voice.
“Take
the baby,” Xander commanded, holding the child out as Obi-wan
stared at him blankly. “Move! Now!” Obi-wan jumped at the severe
tone and climbed out of the way as fast as he could move. He took the
baby, reaching for another blanket to wrap Leia in. Luke, seeming to
sense the gravity of the moment, woke and added his worried wail to
the commotion.
Xander,
feeling a moment of deja vu checked for Padme's vital signs. Her
heart faltered even under his touch and then seemed no more. “No!”
he cried out. His fingers fisting tightly and his knuckles raking
along her sternum. “Padme! Wake up. Don't stop!” Straightening
her body on the table, he moved to turn his ear along her mouth.
There was no exhalation.
“She's
gone?” Obi-wan spoke, a question and a realization.
“Not
yet she isn't,” Xander growled. It couldn't end like this. He
remembered... Dawn, Leia, talking of their mothers. It wasn't
supposed to be like this. It shouldn't ever be like this. The motions
automatic, he tilted her head back, breathing into her lifeless
mouth. And then moved to press down on her chest, fear and
desperation coating his being. The actions of CPR were so ingrained
at this point, stimulating her heart, breathing for her. He never
even realized that he was talking to her, using up the precious
oxygen. But he knew too, that the motions were not enough for the
spirit.
“Come
on Padme,” he grunted as he worked. “Don't give up now. You have
everything to live for.” Breathe. Breathe. Compressions. “Whatever
it is calling you away, fight it!” Breathe. Breathe. Compressions.
“You need to be brave. You can do this!” Breathe. Breathe.
Compressions. “Your daughter needs you. Your son...” Breathe.
Breathe. Compressions. “Don't leave us Padme. Come back. Come back,
damn it!”
Neither
Xander nor Obi-wan could say how long he worked, until he was
gasping, his movements slowing. Luke had long ceased his wailing,
Leia had never started. But with one tiny noise, they seemed to
realize that perhaps their cause was futile. But like the calm before
the storm, the noise heralded triumph.
The
gasp as life returned to her was not loud, but it was so welcome and
Padme's eyes flashed open for just a moment before closing, her head
lolling as she began to cough weakly. Xander, relief flowing through
him, reached to feel at her neck, her pulse thrumming weakly through
her carotid artery. “Oh thank God,” he whimpered.
“That...”
Obi-wan began, “was truly miraculous,” he finished, awed and
humbled.
“Wha...?”
Padme tried to ask before coughing again. Xander turned, trying to
remember if water after CPR was a good thing. But then shrugged to
himself. She would just wear herself out coughing and maybe bring on
another round of troubles, was his thinking. He retrieved it and
helped her to sip at it, though she was still extremely weak. After
trying to push his hand away, Padme tried once more. “What...
Anakin...?”
“Anakin?”
Xander asked, puzzled, glancing up to Obi-wan, who was carefully
trying to wrap Leia more securely within the blanket. There was a
moment's hesitation on the other man's part.
“He
is... was the father,” Obi-wan finally answered and Xander cocked
his head. That was very telling. Xander nodded and turned back to the
Lady.
“What
about Anakin?” he asked gently. Padme, her eyes troubled, tried to
wet her lips, but Xander was there with the glass again.
“He
w-was calling me,” she tried to tell them. “He wanted me... to
come to him...” It seemed to pain her to talk and Xander, his hand
at her shoulder, made soothing noise and motion.
“He
turned to the dark side Padme,” Obi-wan choked out heavily. “You
and I both know this.”
“He's
not dead,” she sighed, tears leaking from the corners of both eyes.
“Not yet. Obi-wan,” she whispered, “there is still good in
him.”
The
older man sighed, sounding defeated as his head bowed and he moved to
put the baby girl beside her brother. “Padme,” he began, sounding
as if he were about to argue. “I can feel him as well. The force
bonded us as brothers. Not just master and padawan. I can not-!”
“There
is still good-!” she began
vehemently, but it was too much for her abused body and Xander hushed
her.
“It's okay, Padme,”
he soothed and when her mouth opened once more, he smiled gently at
her. “Shh, I believe you.” The look of relief and pain in her
eyes, he had seen before, in so many others.
“Xander, you do not
understand,” Obi-wan began, but Xander, having taken hold of
Padme's hand, shook his head quickly. But Obi-wan persisted. “Anakin
turned himself completely over to the dark side. There is nothing
left in him but the desire for power.”
“You know what I've
learned,” Xander chuckled lightly, his eyes directed at the woman
before him, but his words were for both of them. “I've learned,
that there is no one in the universe so far gone that they can't
redeem themselves if they just try. Love is always more powerful than
darkness. And the hardest thing in this world, this universe? Is to
live in it.”
“Those are wise words,”
Obi-wan conceded slightly, “but I do not know that they-!”
“It's true,” Xander
protested quietly. “I've seen it all. I've seen my best friend, the
most powerful witch, force wielder in our world be consumed by anger
and hate. But we still loved her and it was that love that brought
her back to the light. It was a hard road, filled with pain and self
doubt, but she came through stronger than ever. It never stopped
being a struggle, but she does it, every day. She faces her loss and
her pain, but she also embraces the love we have for her and hers for
us. That's what gets her through. Now,” he added, sniffling once
and turning his head, using one hand to gesture to where the twins
lay. “You and Anakin created something miraculous over there,
didn't you?”
Padme's eyes followed
Xander's, the tears welling up again as she nodded. “So beautiful,”
she nodded infinitesimally.
“They are,” Xander
agreed. “And I think they're worth fighting for. If you and this
Anakin are connected, through your love, through your children, don't
you think it's worth fighting for? Give him a reason to come back to
the light Padme.”
“He saw...” she tried
to tell him, “this. Me, dying in childbirth.”
“That was what he
feared?” Obi-wan demanded with a gasp.
“It is what he saw,”
Padme corrected, “in the future.”
“And the fear and the
seeing fed each other,” Xander nodded. “Growing epically out of
proportion, I bet.” Both Lady and Jedi nodded, almost dumbly as
they realized this themselves. Xander grinned again. “Do you know
how many prophecies my friends and I have turned on their heads? How
many we've proved wrong?” He didn't answer with a number. “You
know, my best friend Buffy? She was prophesied to die, when she was
young. But I did the same thing to her that I did to you. She came
back to us, from death, stronger and more powerful than ever. And she
used that power and strength to save people, to protect the weak. And
I'm not saying she didn't have troubles too. But she was so filled
with love...” he paused, trailing off slightly and then made a
small harrumphing noise. “I think that's the key Padme,” he told
the woman in all seriousness. “You need to make a choice. Give in
to Anakin's darkness, let his prophecy be fulfilled and lose him and
yourself. Or fight back. Keep loving him and believing in him and
give him a reason to come back to you. To your children.”
There was a long moment
of silence as tears continued to well in the Lady's eyes, her
breathing rough. But soon it evened out, though the tears didn't.
“You're right,” she gasped out. “You're right. I must... live.
My children...”
“Will see your strength
and love my lady,” Obi-wan murmured, leaning over her to stroke her
hair gently. “They will be honored and nourished with it. Together,
we will teach them of their true father, the one that loved them so
dearly.”
Seeing now that there was
purpose again in both of them, Xander sniffled again and rose to his
feet from his position beside Padme. He felt as if they had crossed a
huge milestone, but they'd be okay now. There were going to be
worries and fears and hard times, of course, but if they just
remembered why they fought...
Xander glanced down at
the children, surprisingly, both had their eyes open, staring up into
the closed in world, both looking solemn. Xander couldn't help
grinning as he reached for Leia, her hand catching his pinkie finger,
by seeming accident. “I was right,” he whispered to her, to
himself, “you are a very beautiful little girl. And your brother?
He's gonna be quite the little man, isn't he?”
As Obi-wan continued to
bolster Padme, theirs eyes locked together as they silently
communicated their newfound commitment to the future, neither noticed
the soft glow of light behind Obi-wan. It wasn't until they heard a
very familiar noise, that they both turned to see another oddity in
their lives.
“Oh, I do say!” C-3P0
protested as he waved his mechanical arms slightly. “How
disorienting!”
With a wide grin, tinged
with some sadness, Obi-wan turned back to Padme. “I do believe he's
gone.”
“But he most certainly
will not be forgotten,” Padme declared, more strength in her voice
than there had been since the entire ordeal had started. Obi-wan
nodded once before his attention was taken by the communications
system of their craft. Someone was sending them a message and it
would behoove them all to answer, since it was their momentary
salvation. Plans would need to be made, decisions and declarations.
But there was a peace in their souls to fight back the darkness that
had grown. One seed was all that had been needed.
*****
Leia sat beside the young
man that she had grown so much closer to over the course of time that
they had fought together under the banner of the Rebel Alliance. Here
on Endor, there seemed some peace, though it was small and fleeting.
But too, she could sense an unease in Luke. She wished she could
comfort him, but the things in her mind, she was unsure... hesitant.
But before she could speak again, Luke had turned to her, his eyes
curious.
“Do you remember your
mother? Your real mother, I mean?” he asked of her and Leia, taken
back to warmth and comfort and above all, love, smiled softly.
“Feelings, images,
mostly,” she nodded to him. And then sighed. “She died when I was
very young.”
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