Saturday, June 23, 2012

Fiction WUaCitM01- Seeing Miss Morgan


Title: Wish Upon A Crack In The Mirror
Chapter Title; Seeing Miss Morgan
Author: Restive Nature
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to either Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Supernatural. They belong respectively to Whedon & Mutant Enemy and to Kripke & the CW. No infringement is intended and no profit made on this fiction. It is for private enjoyment only.
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Crossover
Type: young angst
Pairing: There are no pairings but for canon parings, but we'll see some people you might not normally think of put together.
Summary: Kids always think things are worse than they are, but in this situation, Sammy has never been more wrong.
Spoilers/ Time line: Pre series for Supernatural and in Season 2 and on for Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Feedback: Always welcome!
Distribution: Ask first please.
A/N: This came about from an odd thought I had about Mayor Wilkins and how he treated Faith.




Wish Upon A Crack In The Mirror
Chapter One
Seeing Miss Morgan

So I heard you had to go see Miss Morgan today,” Dean Winchester muttered to his younger brother Sammy as he carefully ladled out yet another portion of cheap, from a can, supposed to be, Italian food.

It was no big deal Dean,” eight year old Sam protested, glancing up at his overprotective twelve year old brother. Dean finished spooning out his brother’s portion, and then turned to fill his own bowl. After he was done, he placed the pot back on the stove, took his seat and picked up his spoon, then pointed it at his brother’s bowl.

Eat!” he commanded. Sam sighed and picked up his own utensil. He toyed with his food while he waited for the expected rant. When their dad was gone on a hunt, like he was now, Dean tried awful hard to fill his dad’s shoes. And just like John, he couldn’t help but complain about people interfering in their lives. “So what’d she want?”

Nothing,” Sam replied petulantly. His older brother gave him the glare. Sam had learned quickly that it meant ‘spill it before I pound it out of you!’ “She’s just new too. And she picked a few kids, so she could start to get to know them.”

And she just happened to pick you, huh?” Dean scoffed as he crammed the sauce laden pasta into his mouth.

And Danny Knott,” Sam was quick to point out. The kid was... What were the words his teacher had used to describe the boy? Oh yeah. So well-adjusted a nuclear bomb wouldn’t disturb him.

Uh huh?” While the words were mild, the tone was still skeptical.

Miss Hallie was nice!” Sam protested. “She let me draw and asked about school. And she didn’t make me take those psychotic tests.”

Dean smirked at that, even though he knew well enough that Sam meant the psychological evaluation tests that some people foisted off on kids they thought were ‘troubled’. He’d had to take a few himself. Stupid things! ‘Don’t worry Dean. There are no wrong answers!’ After a quick visit from a social worker or counselor or someone in an authoritative position each time, Dean had figured pretty quickly that with those tests, every answer was the wrong one. “You didn’t tell her anything about Dad or us, did you?”

No!” Sam denied vehemently. His brother eyed him for a moment, then went back to eating, Sam followed suit, his hunger finally exerting itself.

But that evening, after they’d grudgingly washed the dishes, done their homework and well before John was due back, there came a knock at the apartment door. Both boys stilled instantly, silence falling across the room. Dean was just thankful that he hadn’t turned the TV on yet.

Boys? Mr. Winchester? It’s Miss Morgan from the school. I know you’re in there. I heard you just a moment ago,” came the sweet voice of a young woman. “May I come in?”

Sam watched Dean silently swear. Sam moved cautiously to the door. Dean shook his head. “Miss Hallie?” Sam called. Dean scowled at him. “We’re not supposed to open the door to strangers.”

They heard her chuckle. “That’s fine boys, but I’d like to talk to your father. Is he there?”

The boys exchanged panicked glances. They couldn’t say that John wasn’t home. Then she might return with the police or a social worker. Dean, always a quick thinker, came up with a handy excuse.

He’s in the bathroom ma’am,” he called through the door. “He’s not feelin’ good.”

Oh dear,” they heard her mutter. “Well, it will only take a moment of his time. I can wait.”

The boys exchanged glances. “He might be a while,” Dean warned, and then inspiration struck. “And he wouldn’t want you to catch what he’s got. Said it was bad enough Sam and I probably got it and will have to miss school tomorrow.”

Well I’m glad he’s so considerate,” Miss Hallie called back. “But I think-!” Her words were abruptly cut short.

Who the hell are you?” another much more familiar voice demanded. Dean bit back a groan. Of all the times for their father to come back early from a hunt!

I’m Miss Morgan,” Miss Hallie introduced herself. “The new counselor at Grove Elementary. Are you Mr. Winchester?” He must have nodded. “Well that’s odd. I’m distinctly sure that your boys said that you were in the bathroom. That you were ill.” On that last word, the door swung open. Both boys froze, but Dean had learned his quick thinking ways from the best.

I was,” John stated unequivocally. “The boys must not have heard me tell them I was running out to get some ‘flu remedies.” He glanced at them and Dean shook his head.

Sorry Dad, I didn’t,” he offered. Sam just shook his head as well. John turned back to the woman.

And you bought enough to fill a duffel bag?” Miss Hallie asked with some amusement, glancing down at the bag in his hand.

Forgot to bring it in earlier,” John lied easily. Then he made an odd face. “Excuse me!” he apologized harshly, dropped his bag and dashed to the bathroom. He opened the door, slammed it shut. They could hear retching noises and Dean turned back pointedly to Miss Hallie.

Oh dear,” she sighed, and then turned to Dean. “Why don’t you tell your father that I’ll call on him in a day or so?” She gathered herself to leave.



Uh, Miss Morgan?” Dean stopped her and Sam was surprised to hear him speak up and to at least try and sound respectful. The woman turned back and smiled widely, waiting for him to continue speaking. “Maybe you could tell me, or I can give my Dad a message about what you'd like to talk to him about. Maybe, uh, leave a phone number so he can call you?”



Oh, that would be fine,” Miss Morgan nodded and then quickly dug in her purse for paper and a pen. She had the first and Sam grabbed a writing instrument from his backpack and handed it over to her. She approached the table, barely paying any attention to the remnants of the food there. Laying the notepad there, she quickly scribbled out a note, including the telephone number to the school's office as well as her extension. She tore the piece out of the small book and folded it once before handing it to Sam.



Slouching just slightly, she smiled down at him before ruffling his hair just slightly. “Nothing huge Sam. There was just a note from your previous school about some curriculum changes they'd thought you'd benefit from.”



Sam, even though having someone in any official capacity in their personal space was nerve wracking, still let out a sigh of relief. She might say it was nothing major, something adults always tried to make you believe, but strangely, he believed her about that. Patting his shoulder, she gathered her belongings, leaving the pen on the table. As she made it to the door, she turned to address Dean once more.



If you boys do end up being ill tomorrow,” she reminded them, “please have your father remember to call the office before eight in the morning, otherwise you'll be considered truant.”



Thank you Miss Morgan,” Dean nodded, seeming to have found the actual polite response. “I'll make sure.” He waited for her to leave before checking the knob to make sure the door was completely shut. As soon as they heard her foot steps recede, Dean hurried to the bathroom door, knocking on it to let his father know that the woman had left. John emerged from the bathroom, having heard the entire conversation, praising Dean for getting the message. Irregardless, they were leaving immediately. Sam knew it was inevitable.



But even as he sighed and started separating the books in his bag, school books from the very few that he owned, Dean and Dad were barking at him to hurry up and get his behind in gear. He knew it was futile to argue that Miss Morgan didn't mean them any harm. She was an authority figure and head shrink. Either on their own was bad enough to John. School counselors were a double whammy of bad when he was trying to fly under the radar with the boys.



Finally having had enough, and gripping his packed bag, Sam started trudging down the hallway, out to the parking lot to dump his belongings in the car. He knew he'd get another earful from Dean and probably Dad for wandering around by himself. But he was eight, not a baby. He knew all about stranger dangers. Reaching the parking lot, easily finding the Impala, knowing it would be locked, Sam dropped his duffel by the rear wheel and settled down upon it. Dad and Dean didn't need his help. He would just be in the way while they got things ready to go.



Resting his arms on his upraised knees and then his chins upon his arms, he sighed heavily. “Dad probably wouldn't care if someone did grab me,” he muttered morosely to himself. “He'd probably be happy I was gone. Wouldn't have to worry 'bout me no more. And Dean wouldn't have to either. Maybe it'd be easier it I was gone. Maybe I could...” the words wouldn't come out though, no matter what Sam might think at that moment. It was obvious that he was tired, frustrated and more than a little upset.



What is it you wish Sam?



The words seemed to be born on the evening breeze and Sam, only a little perturbed, rubbed his cheek against the long sleeve of his shirt. “I wish...” he mumbled and then looked around himself. There was no one around, no one to hear. Especially not Dean or Dad. “I wish that I could live a normal life, not always moving around. I wish I had a Dad that was the opposite of the one I got. I wish I could be some place where I could go to school for more than a few weeks.”



There, it was all out and Sam felt better, if only for a moment, that like purging a sickness, it had come up and out, to bother him no longer. But then the realization that for all the wishing he might do, it wouldn't change a thing. He lowered his head once more, burrowing his face in the crook of his elbow. He never even noticed Miss Morgan watching him from beyond the shadows of the street lamp. Never noticed how her attractive face morphed into something that could only come out of a nightmare. Nor did he notice when she stepped into the light, lifted one arm and with a curious wave and gesture of her hand, smiled widely.



Wish granted Sam,” she murmured.



Sam never even noticed the flash of light that changed his entire world.

Fiction NFA01- You Lied!


Title: Never Fade Away
Chapter Title: You Lied!
Author: Restive Nature
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to Dark Angel or Angel the Series. They belong respectively to Cameron/ Eglee and to Whedon/ Greenwalt. No infringement is intended and this fiction is for private enjoyment only.
Rating: PG-13 for language
Genre: Crossover
Type: General
Pairing: Max/ Alec
Summary: In his mind at least, her memory would never fade.
Spoilers/ Time line: Post Series for both shows.
Feedback: Always welcome!
Distribution: Ask first please.
A/N: This is based off of Illynne's challenge from Nuns With Pens. But I couldn't resist turning it into a crossover. Hopefully it will be enjoyed.



Never Fade Away
Chapter One


You lied!”

Max's head came up as the angry snarl of words hit her like a freight train. That she didn't immediately recognize the voice caught her by surprise. She glanced around and then over her shoulder to see Alec's angry visage looming down on her. “Alec?” she was confused, until she realized then, that he must have found out about her little white lie to Logan. That was the only thing that could have caused this amount of upset in the other transgenic. She sighed tiredly, ready to explain and defend herself. “Look, I-!”

No!” Alec's voice cut in harshly as he took another step towards her and Max, tried to control the sudden trembling that his mien was evoking in her. “You've had your chance. You've had plenty of chances, but no more Max. It's my turn to talk. You lied to Logan about us being together. And I know exactly why you did it.”

Well if you know-!” Max began to interrupt, about to point out, reasonably in her mind, that it was a very forgivable thing. How many times had his little white lies, or worse, bigger lies and scams led them into trouble that she had had to rescue him from? But Alec's face darkened and her mouth snapped shut as his fist flew, resounding with a crash into the locker behind her in the headquarters of Jam Pony, the bike messenger service they both worked at.

I said it's my turn,” he hissed lowly. He pulled his fist back, apparently not noticing where the skin over his knuckles had split slightly and were beading with a few drops of blood. “I had thought, Max,” he sneered her name, “that we had been through enough together that we could be honest with each other. After all, wasn't that what that night was about?”

Max winced as she recalled the night he was referring to. The night she had rescued him from jail and had then shared the truth of Ben's demise. The real truth, not the assumed one in which Manticore had caught up with him and had put Ben down, not wanting a psychotic serial killer on the loose. That Manticore would be more concerned with minimizing exposure than saving innocent lives went without saying.

And correct me if I'm wrong,” Alec went on, towering over her and Max fought not to try and duck away from him. Always stand tall, she thought, even when she was in the wrong. Which she wasn't... exactly. “But didn't we agree to be honest with each other from now on? I believe your exact words were 'with everything going down, we can't afford to leave anyone out in the cold'?”

I know I said-!” Max tried again, meaning that she hadn't intended to lie to him, more like just not tell him everything, because really, Logan thinking that they were dating was not that huge a deal in the larger transgenic and transhuman safety issues.

And then not even six hours later, you're lying again?” Alec thundered. Max licked at her suddenly dry lips, realizing with a quick, avoiding glance, that they were drawing a crowd. She inhaled quickly, trying to get the sentence out before he went on.

We're drawing too much attention,” she hissed and Alec's face took on an amused look. But it was not one that Max liked. No, this was... twisted.

Well heaven forbid the great Maxie Guevara get any more attention that she doesn't want,” Alec whispered sibilantly. He stepped back from her and tilted his head a little to the side. “Well, I'm not sorry to say this,” he announced loudly, playing, Max recognized, to the crowd that was staring unabashedly at them. “But it's over Max. Guess you're too much of a bitch for even me to handle.”

Max gaped at him and there were some snickers in the group. “Alec? I- you...?”

I, you, what?” Alec demanded. He paused but there were no words forthcoming from her. “Face it Max, you keep pulling the bullshit you do and people are gonna get tired of it. I'm just glad I found that out before you sucked me in even further. So this is it. We're done.”

Done?” she asked faintly, wondering exactly how done he meant.

That's right Maxie,” he smiled, but it was one that did not reach his eyes. Max had never seen him look so cold. “I'm breaking up with you.” Her eyes widened, not because of the words that he had chosen. There was nothing there, because he was, underneath it all, a Manticore bred soldier. He could keep up pretense with the best of them. It was the emotion underlying the words that stabbed deep. “New quid pro quo. Don't ever call me again and I sure as fuck won't call you.”

With those parting words, he spun around on his heel and took off, away from her at a steady trot. Max stared after him as the crowd parted to allow him through. He snagged a package from Normal, who had just been coming out from behind the desk to see what all the brouhaha was about. But seeing that it had ended of it's own accord, he simply glanced after his favorite worker and then snatched up his clipboard and marked something off before returning to his desk. But his snippy words, reached Max anyway.

'Bout time someone put Missy Miss in her place,” Normal snarked under his breath.

A'ight, this ain't no show,” Original Cindy's strident voice, loud and authoritative broke through the slight haze that Max found herself in. “Back to work people!”

She felt her friend's hand on her arm and quickly shook it off, ducking her head as she suddenly realized that she wasn't seeing Cindy because there were tears in the way. She blinked rapidly for a few seconds until the moisture passed away, luckily not down her cheeks as she feared they would. She turned back to her locker and went back to what she'd been doing just a few minutes previous.

You a'ight Boo?” Cindy asked gently from beside her.

I'm fine OC,” Max rolled her eyes and shook her head. “Just typical of that creep to make a scene like that. Doesn't ever listen to anybody, does he? Thinks he knows everything and when he finds out that he doesn't, it's all me, me, me! He's just an attention whore, ya know?”

Uh huh,” the black woman shook her head, but it didn't even sound convincing to Max's ears. Nevertheless, as she always seemed to when something had attacked her, she turned right around and attacked back. The next half hour, found Max and Cindy on runs together with Max complaining about Alec's supposed shortcomings. Until at last even Cindy seemed to have had enough of it and had waited until Normal had thrown another package Max's way and Cindy had claimed that she needed to eat before she keeled over from low blood sugar. Not seeing it for the escape tactic that it was, Max had herded her to the employee lounge, claiming she'd see her friend in a bit.


*****

So you an' Max were datin'?” Sketch asked, pulling up next to Alec as their returns to Jam Pony coincided, though it was obvious to Alec that the lanky man was looking for something more. “Niiiice,” he drew the word out and Alec threw him a glare.

Not so much,” he disagreed. “In case it slipped your notice, that chick is venomous.” A poor joke really, given the givens, but Sketch was simply not aware of the truth and as much as Alec would love to clue someone in, he cared too much about his skin and those of his co-escapees to give up the goods now.

So seriously though,” Sketch continued, apparently oblivious to the warning signs that Alec was sure were glaring like neon from him. “Now that she's all free and clear...?”

Seriously,” Alec repeated Sketch's words and clapped his hand on the stoner's shoulder until he gave in and looked Alec in the eye. “The bitch is so damaging that I wouldn't even wish her on my worst enemy. Don't go there Sketch.”

Okay,” Sketch breathed out, after studying the intensity burning in Alec's eyes for a long moment. He shook his friend's hand off and then frowned. “So after that little snafu, how you gonna handle havin' to work with her?”

Who says I'm going to work with her?” Alec grinned slyly. Sketch's eyes widened and then followed Alec's gaze over to Normal. And ready to put plan into action, he strolled over to the desk where the boss man was bipping out orders and with a suave charm envied by many, had his routes cleared to the point where he and Max would only be in each others vicinities by happenstance.

*****

Two weeks had gone by and at first, Max had relished in the relative peace. Sure, she got nasty looks from all the girls at work, but since she'd never really been their friend to start with, it mattered little to her. And since none of them knew Logan, there were no worries there with letting that little secret slip to the hacker and having him try to re-establish their impossible relationship.

But then, she'd find herself turning to tell Alec something, whether important about plans for Terminal City or just something funny about her day, but he wasn't there, close to hand or hovering over her shoulder as he often had been. At first, she told herself that she was relieved that she wasn't having to bail his ass out of trouble, or that she didn't have to listen to him whining, or regaling Normal or Sketchy with obviously self-inflated stories of his awesomeness. In fact, she had noticed real quick that she rarely ever saw him anymore. He wasn't showing up at Crash for his nightly pool game and Scotch with Sketchy. Which had depressed her blond friend. And neither did she see any of the other transgenics that Alec had snuck in under Normal's radar hanging around.

Finally, after about three days, in which her temper had cooled and she erroneously assumed that his had as well, she went over to his apartment to make overtures. Something that she rarely did, even when she was blatantly in the wrong. She was more likely to rationalize behavior, rather than straight up admit the wrongness. And it was fair, she reminded herself. Life was not black and white. There were too many shades of gray in between.

But Alec had not been home that evening. So she had trailed over to Crash, thinking he might be there, but again no joy. So she had headed over to TC, thinking perhaps he was visiting his buddies down on Oak street. But none there had seen him. One of the transhumans, Luke did give her a heads up about some trouble down on the waterfront that they'd been tracking, but so far there was nothing of note to worry about. So Max had put that in the back of her mind for the time being.

That night had ended up a bust. So she swallowed her dislike of public scenes and arrived at Jam Pony early the next morning. She was there as he wheeled his bike in. He saw her, she knew that he did, but he just ignored her as he dropped of his bike and headed to his locker. Figuring that there'd be a slighter modicum of privacy than the main room had, she followed after him. But he'd completely frozen her out. And did so every single time she tried to talk. It was like she didn't even exist anymore. It hurt and pissed her off, but she finally decided that if he wanted to be childish about it, that was fine. She was the bigger person after all, so she decided to let him have his little snit fit.

Until the day came that she couldn't ignore his ignoring her any longer.

Go for Max,” she answered her cell phone that she blatantly ignored that Alec had scored for her after that night in her apartment.

Max, it's Luke,” the transhuman announced. She waited. “We got a line on what's up with those waterfront buildings.”

What's the what?” she demanded as she cased her surroundings with a practiced eye. She had just been about to head down to Crash on her baby, play a little foosball with her roommate and forget about the evils of men for a while.

We had contact with a group, mixed, coming in from the cold,” Luke informed her. “We directed them through perimeter sector police. They were in the city proper when we lost contact. That was six hours ago.”

Why didn't you call me then?” she demanded harshly, even though she knew that was not protocol.

Because no news is good news?” the transhuman answered and Max wasn't sure if he was being facetious or not. “Anyway, Dix picked up a private surveillance feed and got the line. They were abducted out of an alley. Looks like those goons you warned us about.”

Familiars,” she huffed out and swore silently. Just typical that White and his merry band of morons would ruin her night. “You know where they're at?”

They were held down in those waterfront warehouses you were worried about,” Luke informed her. “We managed to get an operative close enough to put a tracker on one of the vans goin' in.”

And?” she prompted.

It just came on line,” he offered and Max smiled grimly.

*****

Alec was just lacing up his second boot when the pounding on his door started. He checked himself from answering immediately. Before, he'd have had no compunction about answering, but ever since he'd started ignoring her, she had swung by a few times and tried to walk in as she used to. So now he waited. The peephole in the door was a bonus. But this night was different.

There was no pretense at knocking. The banging was immediate and instantly followed by her voice raised to be heard through the door. “Alec? Open up! We got a situation.” He sighed and frowned, realizing that one of the transhuman yahoos down in Terminal City must have called her as well.

With a swift decision making process, he decided that her help was better than doing this on his own. And so, he finished with his boot, yanked on his jacket, made sure he had the keys for his lime green Bandit and the transponder that he'd already picked up and made his way to the door. He yanked it open in mid-pound and jerked back from being knuckled in the face.

Oh Alec,” Max looked startled that he actually answered. “Did you hear me?”

The whole friggin' building heard you,” he snarled as he intimidated her back out of his space so that he could pull his apartment door shut. “How the hell you evaded the man for as long as you did, given that your stealth is for shit, I'll never know,” he more muttered than said.

What was that?” Max demanded as she scurried to follow after him. But still tired of her attitude and her spurious logic and just the simple fact that he was obviously nothing more than a tool to her, kept him quiet. He just hoped that she would get the hint sooner rather than later. “Look Alec, Luke called. Some friends are,” her voice dropped and he wanted to roll his eyes, “in trouble. We need to-!”

Yeah, I got it,” he snapped as he hit the stairwell. “Let's go.”

That shut her up easily enough. Her Ninja was parked next to his recently purchased Bandit and he had a momentary misgiving that he'd chosen such a flashy color. But then, he hadn't imagined that he'd be doing more than a little joyriding on it, not rescuing more freaks like him. Switching on the transponder receiver that was linked to the tracking bug, he mounted his bike and nestled it as best he could, strapping it down to the fuel tank with a small bungee cord. Wouldn't do to have to stop every few miles to check the route. From what he could tell, they weren't out of the city yet.

He thought he heard Max start to ask another question, but the roar of his bike forestalled anything she might say. He pulled away and could see in his side mirror that she was right behind him, looking as usual, righteously infuriated. He wondered if someone had given her some sort of ice maiden gene that froze her face like that. He allowed himself a small grin for a moment and then focused on the business on hand.

They were only stopped by sector cops twice. Both times, Alec used his loose shirt top and jacket to cover the transponder and none of the cops noticed anything. Luckily for Max's admittedly fine ass, he happened to have two travel passes with him and the simple tale of, running up the coast to see his cousin who just had a baby, was easily accepted. Max wisely held her tongue the first time, the second, took only half a second before gushing on about how cute the baby was sure to be and she couldn't wait to hold the little bundle. The guy had smiled indulgently and waved them on.

Nice story,” Max had grunted as they'd moved on. Alec rolled his eyes. The woman was oblivious to everything, wasn't she? Had she even noticed the guard station was littered with pictures of the guard with his family, the newest crop of pictures that hadn't curled at the edging, was him holding a baby at the hospital. One of the lessons he learned well was how to ingratiate himself with strangers, give them some common ground and tug on the heartstrings.

They ended up driving about sixteen miles up the road before Alec noted that the transponder image had changed direction. He easily hooked up his wireless headset and called in to base to get some idea of what they were heading into, while he was sure he heard Max loudly grumbling about him having to call his nightly hook-up and let the girl know he'd be late. If he showed up at all. By that point, he was ready to leave her ass in the dust and let her figure things out on her own.

They've turned east,” Dix confirmed. “Not a lot out there immediately. But about ten miles in, you'll hit a town. Fairly small population. They're two and six, make that eight miles ahead of you. If it stops in another four, we'll have the location, but I'll plan out further.”

Thanks man,” Alec replied to the quickly given Intel and hung up the phone. He checked his phone to make sure that it was currently set to auto answer. Max pulled up closer and yelled over the wind.

How much further?” she demanded, it sounding like a whisper. Alec simply raised two fingers and then gestured to the east. He felt more than heard or saw her disgruntled grumble as she fell back slightly.

Alec saw the turn and while barely slowing, leaned into it. It took him onto a dirt road and he smiled, knowing that his Bandit was made for this kind of ride. But apparently, Max had already thought of this possibility or knew this area enough that she had slowed considerably. Alec glanced at the transponder again, noting that it had slowed as well, but was still moving in an easterly direction. He heard then the distinctive tone of his phone and the click as it picked up.

Yo, what's up,” he greeted, unsure as to whether it was Dix, Luke or someone else entirely.

You want to tell me what's going on, moron?” Max's voice rang clear in his ear. Pursing his lips and removing one hand from his handlebars, he pressed the end call button. After just a second, it started ringing again.

What?”

Don't you freakin' hang up on me Alec!” Max yelled in his ear and Alec's hands tightened convulsively.

Shut up Max!” he resounded fiercely. “For two fuckin' seconds in your life shut up! I need to keep this line clear for Dix, so that we know what the hell we're rolling into. So get the hell of my line or go the hell home!” And then with a satisfied smirk at her affronted gasp, hung up on her a second time.

The phone rang immediately again and Alec rolled his eyes, considering stopping for all of the two minutes it would take to yank her off her bike, hog tie her and leave her on the side of the road. With the Bandit, because admittedly that little Ninja was doin' just fine, it was a better color for concealment and it would so piss her off mightily.

I swear to God Max-!” he began as soon as the call picked up, but an amused chuckle broke through.

Is she on your ass again?” came the familiar tones of one of his former unit mates, 964, now known as Bruno. The man was quite familiar with the problems with Max, as Alec had used him as a rant board a few times.

In more ways than one man,” Alec sighed. “What'd you need?”

All right, walked in to HQ and they roped me into your little project,” Bruno replied, suddenly all business. “Anyway, about three miles beyond that town you're headed to?”

Yeah, what'd you find?”

There's an old abandoned bed and breakfast just off the main road,” Bruno informed him. “It's been empty for years, but about six months ago, it powered up,” Bruno went on. “Gas, electric, water, all on line. And there's plenty of outbuildings, not sure of their condition. Barn for animal, quonset for vehicles. I'd search those first. It'll be a mile north at the turn off. Watch for that.”

All right, gotcha man,” Ale returned and scanned the upcoming road signs. “Hey, you know the name of the B&B?”

Uh, looks like the Flowering Springs B&B,” Bruno supplied. “Why? You want me to make you a reservation?” he teased.

Oh maybe a massage would be good after all the ass kickin' I intend on deliverin',” Alec smiled. Max had certainly put him in a foul enough mood tonight. The grin stayed on his face as he was able to make out the information, faded as it was, on one of the road signs that Bruno had just given him. “Got it man. We'll pull over here. Hide the bikes. Radio silence from here on out.”

Gotcha man,” Bruno replied easily. “Good luck. I think you're gonna need it.”

The line disconnected before Alec could reply. Pulling the ear piece from his head, he stuffed it back into his coat pocket. A simple depression of a button on his cell, holding it and he could faintly hear the chimes, shutting his cell off. Knowing the Familiars slightly and their abilities, he didn't even want to take the chance that they'd hear the buzz if someone called him while the phone was on silent.

Seeing an excellent spot to cover their vehicles, Alec slowed and pulled closer to the ditch. He knew that there was no way that he'd be losing Max at this point of the venture, so he had decided that he'd be professional. As long as she was. And he was pleasantly surprised when Max followed after him, picking up on the fact that they were hiding the bikes and there was probably a damn good reason for it. She took care of hers efficiently and then helped him finish his, needing more cover to hide the lime green tank.

So what do we got?” she asked, her voice low and hesitant, as if she were unsure that he would answer. Alec was glad and honestly, a little triumphant at holding all the cards this go around.

Tracked the van to this bed and breakfast,” Alec began quietly as they crossed the road, looking ahead for the quickest, quietest, easiest way to traverse the fields. There wasn't much cover, some random seeming trees here and there. Luckily they were both dressed for this. But then again, with her penchant for black, Max was always dressed for this. “Place is go for occupation,” he reported, his words rapped off in a staccato beat, resolved to treat her as just another soldier while on this mission. Hopefully she'd get the idea and back the hell off when it was done. Not that he held out much hope for that. “Our people are most likely gonna be in one of the out buildings.”

Do we have any Intel on the amenities the B and B was providing?” Max asked from beside him and he chanced a glance at her, the sporadic cloud coverage giving him enough light to see her shadowy form. She was looking straight ahead, but he could hear the tremor in her voice. Something was bothering her, but it was none of his concern, because he wasn't hers. He pushed the thought away.

Speculation on that,” he replied, checking the transponder once more. It was still stationary. “964 thinks there'll be some quonsets, maybe barns.”

They'll probably hold them in the barns,” Max mused quietly. Alec had been thinking the same thing. “Stalls for animals can be quickly and easily reinforced and they'd probably want to separate our people from one another.”

Agreed,” Alec nodded once. “But, just because that's what we'd do...”

We'll have to check both,” Max agreed. Her strides were lengthening and Alec was glad. For so long, he'd always checked himself to match her shorter stride and had unconsciously been doing so again. They picked up the pace.

You take the quonset and I'll take the barn,” Alec decided. He felt Max gear up immediately into one of her ranting protests and threw up a hand to cut her off. “No arguments or I'll leave your ass in the dust.”

No,” Max protested stubbornly. “I was just gonna ask why you're taking the barn if we both figure that's where they are at?” she retorted and Alec shook his head in resignation.

One,” he held up a finger as they moved through a small copse of trees, “since they'll most likely be there, it's better someone our people don't despise out of principle approaches them. Two, we need to get this done as swiftly as possible, so splitting up makes sense. And three, we need the Intel if any of the familiars are spread out, waiting for us. Okay? Does that pass muster for you?”

That's fine,” Max's clipped tone betrayed her ire and Alec fought his smirk.

All right,” Alec nodded. “Quiet now.” He chanced another glance and as the cloud passed by the light of the moon, he could see the thinness of her lips as they pressed together angrily.

The miles in were covered quickly, and they found no sign of Familiars patrolling the area. It worried Alec slightly, because this was starting to feel like the earmarks of one of their enemies typical traps. The truck, once stopped had never moved. It was making him rethink that their people were being held in a barn, because most animal shelters were not large enough to drive a vehicle into, unless of course it was a small utility vehicle. But they couldn't discount the possibility that their people had been removed from the vehicle and moved to their holding cells.

They came up on the bed and breakfast and paused, both of them falling naturally into their training. Alec could only hope that Max wouldn't take it into her head to go off on one of her tangent plans and fuck things up for them. If she did, he was about tempted to let her stew in her own damn juices. But he knew that he wasn't that vindictive.

Max was hunkered down, by a fallen tree. She held up her hand and Alec, from his position twelve feet away, turned his head warily to watch her. Like an obedient, well trained soldier, she started informing him of the Intel she was gathering from her position. She marked the number of buildings and he found that she had caught sight of one that he hadn't made. Her vantage point was fine and he nodded when she paused. She marked the three out buildings that she would need to search and the order in which she would move on them, starting at the closest and working her way to the furthest. Alec agreed with that and when she stopped, she dipped her chin once to him.

He returned the favor swiftly, picking out the barn closest to them, then the second barn, then what she had claimed to be a chicken coop. The coop was closer to them, distance wise, but they both knew that Alec would have to cross open ground to get to it, if he went after the barn. It was better to circle around the perimeter than to risk being seen. That decided, Alec made a call signal and Max waited.

'Whippoorwill if you find them, dove if there's distress,' he instructed and rolled his eyes at her annoyed look.

'Birds don't call at night,' she complained. 'Shouting would be a good indication, don't you think?' Even with their sign language she was being a smart assed bitch. And here Alec was just trying to help her. Well screw that! Ignoring her once more, Alec assessed the area and then moved off to his first objective. He heard her indrawn breath, like she was going to protest, but then thought better of it.

As far as he was concerned, he was pretty much on his own. And that, he told himself resolutely, was the way he liked it.

Fiction LitG01- Introducing


Title: Living In The Gray
Chapter Title: Introducing...
Author: Restive Nature
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to Angel the Series, or to Supernatural. They belong respectively to Whedon/ Greenwalt and to Eric Kripke. No infringement is intended and this fiction is for private enjoyment only.
Rating: up to PG-15
Genre: Crossover
Type: Real Family
Pairing: canon show pairings
Summary: Once they knew the truth of the matter, it made sense that Cousin Cordy was stronger than anyone gave her credit for.
Spoilers/ Time line: This is first Season of Angel, starting between the episodes “Somnambulist” and “Expecting”. For Supernatural, it is pre-series, when Sam has started college and John are Dean are still hunting together a bit.
Feedback: Always welcome!
Distribution: Ask first please.
A/N: I had issued this idea to the Twisting The Hellmouth site. The “Cousin Delia” challenge was not answered, so I decided to go ahead and write it myself.

Living In The Gray

Chapter One
Introducing...


John Winchester sat, in one of the hundred or more seedy bars that populated the city of Los Angeles. He and his adult son Dean, had just finished with a hunt, a typical salt and burn. After all the grave digging that they'd had to do to find the bones of the ghost that they were dealing with, John had taken up Deans' suggestion of stopping for a beer before heading back to their motel room.

John knew that Dean had been surprised that his father had agreed to stop. Ever since the advent of Dean's twenty-first birthday and his actual legal first beer, John had more often declined than joined in. John grimaced distastefully to himself as he flipped through the pages of his journal idly. His eyes were skimming but there was nothing pressing, at least not anything new, at the moment and he was just being... idle. His hand, the other one, rested around the base of the bottle of Corona that Dean had brought him. Hefting it slightly before bringing it to his lips, he knew that by the weight and the slosh of the liquid inside, that it was about done. And that meant that John was as well. He wondered if Dean were anywhere near ready. His son, well versed in the bar scene, seedy or otherwise knew that he had to get his kicks in when he could, because when John said it was time to go, that was it. So lately, John had started paying attention to his son's behavior. If he was hitting them hard and fast, Dean was taking his time. If he was just sipping absently, then Dean was pounding back three or four to every one of his.

John knew the behavior for what it was and dismissed it. Dean was an adult now, he had to keep reminding himself. Right there by his side where John could keep an eye on him. Thinking of that now, he let his eye wander to the last place Dean had been, at the pool tables. The boy had developed a good hustle and was regularly bringing in gas money and that was as far as John would admit for what he knew of Dean's spending ways with that particular cash. As long as the kid kept up with the credit card applications, and the cards kept coming in, then John wasn't going to complain.

And as he had been before, Dean was leaning over to make a shot. To anyone else, Dean would look like any other happy go lucky twenty something year old just out for some fun after a hard days work. John wasn't anybody else. He recognized the tension thrumming through and bothering Dean just by the width of his smile alone. That his shoulders were tight and he was watching the line of his shot as well, told him there was more to the story. Dean was upset about something and John didn't need to make many guesses about what. If threat were imminent, Dean would have already forfeited as well as he could. If the threat were medium, he'd finish his game and saunter back to his father. If it were worse, well, John would have known about it a long time before this, he mused to himself, with a snorting, quiet grunt.

And just as he expected, Dean finished off his game, collecting some cash from his opponent, before rubbing one finger at his eye and then stretching up to his full height. The man he'd played against shook his hand and then Dean snagged whatever was left of his beer and started that rolling amble of his that spoke of confidence to all but the most practiced of eyes, to all those around him. It was faster than his normal clip and John inserted one finger into the pages of his journal and closed the book upon it. Dean slid into the seat across from him, smiling vaguely, though John could see that the worry lines that Dean had started developing around his mouth and eyes were etched in well tonight. His son leaned his elbows on the table and John waited for what would look like casual conversation to outsiders, to begin.

Loner at the table to your right,” Dean informed him, looking like he hadn't a care in the world and John, knowing better than to instantly turn and stare, waited for his son to finish. “Came in about forty-five minutes, maybe an hour ago. Took the back corner table and started hitting the Jack straight, hard. Seemed to notice you about half hour ago and he's been glaring daggers at you ever since.”

John smiled tersely and nodded. He lifted his bottle, swirled around what was left of the liquid and asked his son, “so how much did you rake in?” It wasn't a question that Dean normally heard from his father. It was recognized by his son as a distraction technique. Dean grinned widely and spread his arms wide before his voice picked up.

'Nough money for gas next week,” Dean declared loudly. “Man you should'a seen this one shot I made. It was sweet, I tell ya!”

Of course, while Dean was drawing any and all attention with his happy chatter and grandiose gestures, John had lifted his bottle for a last swallow, having to tilt his head all the way back. And as he did, his eyes slid to the right, to check out this loner that had Dean worried. And when he finally was able to place where he'd seen the cultured, suit clad outsider last, he nearly dropped the bottle, choking as he tried to swallow.

Dad?” Dean asked quietly, then waited.

Fuck!” John hissed, dabbing at his chin while his son slid a napkin his way. He snatched it up and mopped off his face.

You recognize him?” Dean asked, though he knew his father had. “I thought he looked familiar.”

He should,” John muttered darkly. Of all the people for them to be around, this guy was one of the very last he ever desired to see. He'd rather run into that damn demon that had taken his wife than be around... Okay, well, seeing that he wanted to end that demon bastard...

Who is he?” Dean wondered, looking slightly mystified.

Your uncle Richard,” John bit off, suddenly aware that Richard Campbell, his brother in law, had realized that he had finally been noticed and the man was standing. Very unsteadily and John recalled what Dean had said about the Jack Daniels as Rich started stumbling around his table. It took seconds only for John to realize that he was heading straight for them and since he was between them and the front door, escape was not looking likely.

Mom's brother?” Dean asked, his voice awed and John rolled his eyes. He'd never spoken ill of Mary's family, but to explain when the boys were old enough, that her family had never understood that something more had happened that night. Demons, ghosts, poltergeists, those were the stuff of fiction. Mary had died in a tragic house fire and that was the end of it. He never did tell the boys how Mary herself had wanted nothing to do with her brother or his wife, eventually. It had taken some time for her to admit that her brother had changed under his wife Elaine's influence. And it hadn't been a good change. And it was Mary, not John that had cut off contact with them, when Richard and Elaine's social climbing had started to hurt them more than it helped. Of course, she had kept up on them through her parents, knowing when Elaine gave birth to a little girl, and sending cards and gifts for the girl on the proper occasions, just as Elaine had for Sam and Dean. Until that night...

John wanted very badly to wipe away the semi-awed tone that he heard in Dean's voice. But then, Dean hadn't seen the man since he was little. Wouldn't have any memories of him, really. But any connection to Mary was one that Dean wanted, John knew that, even if the boy wouldn't verbalize it. He felt a momentary regret that he had cut things off simply for the fact that Dean had been very bemused by the one time that he'd gotten to meet Richard and Elaine's daughter, right after the girl had been born. That of course, had started his demands for a baby, which John and Mary had obliged him with when they'd had Sammy almost two years after Cordelia's arrival.

But before he could think anymore on that line of thinking, Richard was beside him, weaving slightly and Dean was leaning forward to watch this spectacle.

John,” the man sneered. “Never thought I'd see you again. But then, this is just the sorta place you'd slink around, isn't it?”

Richard,” John returned with a sigh. He really didn't feel like getting into a pissing match with the man. “What do you want?”

Want?” Richard repeated. “Why the hell would I want anything from you? You already took everything that mattered.”

John flinched at that sully and he felt Dean bristle beside him. He took just a second to calm and center himself. He laid one hand on Dean's, a non-verbal warning and his son stayed himself as well.

Richard, I didn't start the fire,” he began tiredly. Even though there were times when he wondered why and if it was something that he had done in a past life or something to piss someone off.

The man blinked owlishly and then shook his head. “I'm not talking about that! I'm talking about you and Elaine and your daughter!” The words were snarled and John frowned. Obviously the man was more drunk than he had realized. Dean seemed to have come to the same conclusion. He rose from his barstool and came around his father, reaching one hand to clasp Richard on the shoulder.

Man, you're drunk and I don't think you're thinking too clear,” he offered affably, though John could see disappointment in his son's eyes.

I'm clearer than I've been in my whole life,” Richard snapped back and then eyed Dean up and down before shoving Dean's hand away. “Which one're you?”

John sighed again. “Richard, this is Dean.” He turned to his son. “As you've already gotten, your uncle, Richard Campbell.”

It's Chase,” the man grunted a correction and both Winchester's turned to him. “We legally changed our name just before we moved to California.”

Oh,” John was surprised, wondering why.

Campbell was just too... common for Elaine, you know? And when her great aunt offered to make us the only beneficiaries of her will if I consented...” he groused and then shook his head. “Not like you'd care. You always made your distaste for us perfectly clear.”

Richard,” John sighed once more, wondering if it would be acceptable to glance a blow off of the man's chin. Knock his brain around just enough to get him to pass out and leave them the hell alone. “We weren't trying to hurt you,” he began, only to be interrupted again.

But you did anyways,” Richard snarled. “It wasn't enough to have my wife panting after you, but now I find out... Jesus!”

Richard you know damn well that I never, ever encouraged Elaine,” John spoke softly, his eyes darting to his son, who was watching the scene with wide eyes.

And yet, she got what she wanted anyways,” Richard groaned, unsteady on his feet. His head came up sharply. “Didn't you ever notice what a nice dark head of hair that my daughter has?”

John frowned, trying to figure out what the hell his brother in law was implying.

Or her pretty brown eyes,” Ricard went on. “Certainly didn't come from me or Elaine.” And then John caught on, but before he could respond, his son had done so, grabbing his uncle by the lapels of his expensive suit and hauling him up, face to face.

You might wanna watch what you say to or about my dad,” Dean hissed out and John watched as Richard's addled senses took this in finally and he tried to scramble out of Dean's grip. John made a soothing noise to his son, but Dean was a little too far gone by this slur against his father.

Fine, I won't say it,” Richard finally sneered out. “I'll just tell it to you like my ever loving wife told me. Because we all know what a fine, morally upstanding kind of guy that your father is,” he went on, tauntingly and Dean's grip tightened until John put his hand on his son.

Dean, don't,” he warned gently. In truth, he was starting to feel sorry for Richard. Obviously something was going on and it was something not good. He knew the truth. His son would know it as well. He turned to his brother in law. “I already told you Richard, I never touched Elaine. So whatever lie she's trying to foist off on you, it doesn't involve me.” He turned to look at his eldest. “Let's go.”

Dean glared at his uncle and then dropped him suddenly and smoothed his own jacket down, ready to walk away as his father had instructed. They had begun to do just that when Richard's voice called out, “you remember why I married Elaine?” John barely paused, but kept going. “Her family was loaded. And Elaine had no problem buying whatever she wanted, did she John? She even bought you.”

John paused, the words making no sense and Richard chuckled darkly. “That got your attention, huh? Remember your operation? Your emergency appendectomy? Well, looks like Elaine managed to find an extremely accommodating nurse. You wouldn't give her what she wanted? Well she found a way to take it anyway and to hell with you or my sister or me.”

John felt bile rising in his throat as he tried to connect Richard's words as anything more than a jumble of drunken rantings. “Richard,” he began, shaking his head, “Cordelia is your daughter. She-!”

She's not!” the man snarled. “Just got confirmation this afternoon. Friggin' doctor so sympathetic. I'm fucking sterile. Always have been. Which I guess is great for me. No little messes to clean up after, huh? Not like Elaine cared if I slept around. She had her money and your daughter. But now, Cordy walked out on us. Came to LA and won't even acknowledge us and I lost all that pretty money. So she's got nothin'. Just what the bitch deserves.” He stumbled again and John was quick enough to realize that Richard had finally reached the end of his limit. The man's eyes rolled up in his head and he and Dean swept forward just as another guy was coming into the bar.

Rich!” he yelled. He hurried up to where Dean and John were supporting the passed out man and glanced up at the strangers. “Let me guess,” he snorted derisively. “He got started early, huh? Can't say I blame him.”

Huh?” Dean grunted under his uncle's weight.

The other man moved to help Dean and John move Richard out, grunting that they could take him to his car and he'd see that he got Rich home. He introduced himself as Marv Carlson. John was a little wary, as was natural in his world, giving only his and his son's first names. But Dean, came right out with his question.

So what the hell was he babbling about?” Dean demanded, his eyes shifting between the man that purported to be a friend of his uncle's and the man that had climbed so high in his nephew's untutored expectations, only to crash and burn further than even he could imagine in an all time world record.

Dunno,” the man shrugged and then peered at the father and son. “You guys know Rich?”

He's my brother in law,” John explained shortly. That seemed to finally throw up red flags with the male, who in the Winchester's estimation, had been too trusting until that point.

Huh,” he grunted. “Rich has never mentioned having a sister.” He eyed them thoughtfully as John's jaw set and Dean recognized his father's desire to put the male in his place for bringing up, yet again, painful memories.

My wife is deceased,” John got out in a clipped tone. “We've been estranged with her family since then...” he trailed off as Dean raised a discreet eyebrow at his father. Sharing with a stranger? John hid a sigh, glancing back down at the pathetic form of his brother in law passed out in his friends front seat. “But what was Richard talking about. He lost everything?”

Apparently his father's pained explanation of the family dynamics was enough for the other man to pass muster and he regarded Richard as well before turning back to them. “If you're estranged... well, couple years ago, the IRS cottoned on to the fact that Rich wasn't paying his taxes. And the bracket was high enough, they wanted their share. Long story short, worst case scenario according to Rich's lawyer, he's gonna be doing a stint at a minimum security prison for fraud.”

Shit,” Dean breathed out. That wasn't, even given the perks of a white bread prison over any other, it still wasn't a pleasant prospect.

Okay, but what was he saying about Cordelia?” John pressed, his face pinched and Dean startled.

His dad didn't believe...? He stared discreetly at the man who was more idol at times than father to him and realized with a clenching in his heart that even if what his uncle had been spewing... there was no way that John would leave that information untouched. He glanced back at the other man and saw him shaking his head.

His daughter?” Marv grimaced. “My honest opinion? She was smart. This whole thing started going down, she faced up to reality, got herself a job and after she graduated, she hightailed it the hell out of there. From what Rich told me, she gotten some acting jobs up here and now she's working for some PI to make the ends meet.”

So what's the problem?” Dean interjected. That made sense to him. No good cryin' over friggin' spilled milk. It was pretty much his way of life. Something crappy happened, you dealt with it and moved on. Pretty much literally for he and his family though. “What's got his shorts all bunched about it?”

Marv regarded Dean, smirked a little and then chuckled before sighing. “Rich called me earlier. He came up to see her, I guess. Problem is, she had no problem cutting ties with them. Rich was pissed because she moved on and didn't let them know. Not that you can blame the girl, huh? Not like Rich and Elaine ever paid attention to her when she was growing up. Fuck, I remember when she was in the hospital a year ago?” He paused to see if either male before him knew what he was referring to, but both shook their heads in bewilderment. His voice grew quiet and serious then. “From what I understand, Cordy went to help her boyfriend who'd gotten mixed up with some bad crowd. Staircase collapsed under her. She ended up impaled through the torso on a rebar.”

Jesus!” John bit out, his eyes narrowing dangerously and Dean was staring in slight horror as the man continued his story. “You're sure...” he began, but broke off, suspicions obviously growing in his mind.

Yeah,” he nodded. “My daughter Aura is friends with her. Cordelia survived, obviously. But Rich and Elaine? They showed up a couple hours later, after their maid finally got through to them and after making sure she'd be okay, didn't bother with her until it was time for her to come home, but for a couple of five minute check-ins between parties and work. They sent a car and driver to bring her home.”

What the fu-!” Dean began but the other man was shaking his head.

The girl's a survivor and if she's cut off her parents,” he sighed, “then she's got a damn good reason for doing so.”

Glad to hear it,” John grunted, “but why do you care so much?”

Because I grew up the same way as she did,” Marv shrugged. “Parents too busy social climbing. Wanted to make sure she was doing okay. Aura said she was and I'm glad as hell that she's gonna be okay. Better than okay from what my kid says. Can't say the same for her parents.”

They spent a few more minutes with John fishing for information, but when it looked like Richard was starting to come around a little, John decided that it was probably the better part and all that to get out of the man's vituperative spewing line of fire. He was polite but distant as they left and once they were far enough away from Richard and his friend, Dean glanced at his father's grave face.

What are you thinking Dad?” he whispered. He hadn't meant to say it out loud, knowing instinctively that his father wouldn't say. If he even knew.

I don't know Dean,” John whispered back, his voice sounding more tortured than Dean had heard in a while. “I just don't know.”



Chapter Two- Misconceptions...

Fiction LitG02- Misconceptions


Title: Living In The Gray
Chapter Title: Misconceptions...
Author: Restive Nature
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to Angel the Series, or to Supernatural. They belong respectively to Whedon/ Greenwalt and to Eric Kripke. No infringement is intended and this fiction is for private enjoyment only.
Rating: up to PG-15
Genre: Crossover
Type: Real Family
Pairing: canon show pairings
Summary: Once they knew the truth of the matter, it made sense that Cousin Cordy was stronger than anyone gave her credit for.
Spoilers/ Time line: This is first Season of Angel, starting between the episodes “Somnambulist” and “Expecting”. For Supernatural, it is pre-series, when Sam has started college and John are Dean are still hunting together a bit.
Feedback: Always welcome!
Distribution: Ask first please.
A/N: I had issued this idea to the Twisting The Hellmouth site. The “Cousin Delia” challenge was not answered, so I decided to go ahead and write it myself.



Living In The Grey
Chapter Two
Misconceptions...


It was easy to see that John was completely shell shocked by the so called news that his brother in law had conveyed to him that evening. Hell, Dean was as well, but given his propensity for placing his family before himself, he knew that he needed to keep a clear head to help his father keep from losing his own.

Dad, think about this,” he warned softly as he took a seat on the bed opposite from the one his father was perched on. “You didn't cheat on mom. And Aunt Elaine hiring a nurse, even in that day and age to... to... steal your junk!” was the best euphemism he could come up with and he was relieved when he was rewarded with a small, bemused smile from his father before John went back to brooding. Finally, at long last he sighed.

You don't understand Dean,” he shook his head slowly, painful memories and old wounds rising up. “Elaine was... she always, always got what she wanted. She was the type of bitch that figured she was entitled.” He glanced away, towards the rest of the small motel room they had taken. “And when she had Cordelia...”

What Dad?” Dean implored, hating seeing his father brought low by these people that weren't good enough to wipe shit off of his father's shoe.

When his father glanced back up it was easy to see that he wasn't quite in the present day anymore. “Every time she came over or we were over there, she was always putting little Cordelia in Mary's arm, smiling so...” he broke off in a choked voice. He glanced up at his son and shook his head slowly. “Said we had to get used to it since you weren't a baby anymore, always teasing us about when we'd have another.” He inhaled sharply as he seemed to remember something else. “I always had the sense... I remember thinking one time, the look on that woman's face. It was like she had no interest in her daughter unless we were there. If we weren't there, then Cordelia had no value. I-!”

That's not your fault Dad,” Dean hastened to assure his father, reaching out to clap him gently on the shoulder. But John was shaking his head.

You don't understand Dean,” John argued softly. “Things weren't...” His voice was sounding full and heavy, sorrowful and Dean could see it was costing his father, trying to keep the tears back. But he had always wondered if his father needed to talk about his mother more. His father was a soldier, in more ways than one, and compartmentalizing was the name of the game. But sometimes it could get to be too much and implosion was even messier, because it always turned into explosion and took out people you never meant it to.

It wasn't like Dean wanted his father to turn into a mushy gooey, mess of emotions. Just let the pressure off once in a while. And this was obviously one of those times.

You can tell me Dad,” he leaned in to look his father in his eyes. “I'm a big boy now. And I know,” he swallowed heavily as well, “that I've idolized Mom all my life. But she was human too. She had to have made some mistakes in her life, right?” It nearly killed something inside to have to say it, but even as it had come out of his mouth, he realized that he was right. “Just like you, me, Sammy, hell, every damn person on this earth.”

Yeah,” John chuckled without humor.

His father took in several deep breaths, looking like he was trying to gird himself against whatever was causing him the pain in his memories. Trying to build up his defenses against the memories. It took him some time, but he finally admitted, much to Dean's shock, “your mother left me. It wasn't for very long and you were still little, of course,” he gasped out and Dean's eyes were wide. But the immediate question on his tongue slipped out automatically.

Why?”

John was shaking his head in response. “I always asked that of myself too,” he informed his eldest son. “I didn't understand. One day she was home. I went out on a short jaunt with the Marines. When I got back, she had packed a bag for her and your stuff and was staying in a long term motel suite.”

Did she give any reason why or...?” Dean mumbled, trying to wrap his head around this new information. John was now the one reaching for his son to bolster his flagging confidence.

The first time we talked, I was upset, because I hadn't any indication that she was that unhappy, that desperate,” John replied, tears in his eyes, but he tried valiantly to blink them away. “Your mother wasn't exactly calm herself. It was like she was just waiting for the moment I called to unload everything. Neither of us were making much sense.” He sighed once more and rolled his eyes heavenward.

I can see that,” Dean finally shrugged after a moment. It was how it happened between him and Sammy. They could hold it in, resorting to teasing and bugging one another until it finally got to be too much for one or the other and then they'd blow. Everything would get laid out on the table and then, when the air cleared, it was back to business as usual. But parents... that was different.

Anyway,” John moistened his lips and continued, “when I finally got your mother to talk to me again, she was going on about my having lied to her, going behind her back and betraying her.” He watched as Dean's face contorted slightly. “All of the things that she was upset about, some were valid. I had promised to give up the Marines when you came along, so that she wasn't having to do it all herself. But I found it more difficult than I had thought it would be and I kept making excuses. That was on me.”

Dean smirked slightly. It was a novel thing, to hear his father admit to wrongdoing.

So there was that issue,” John sighed, “which really, was pretty big. And at the time, I thought...”
Thought what Dad?” Dean urged his father to share. John was shaking his head and pursing his lips now.

I wonder now if Elaine...” he began, looking his son in the eye for a moment before tearing his eyes away. “If she said something. If she told your mother?” he wondered. He stood abruptly and began to pace around the room. “She never made it a secret that she wanted something from me. And your mother, out of respect for Richard downplayed it, so I did as well. I wasn't interested in her. She was a viper. And we always ended up laughing it off .But now, some of the things your mother accused me of... Well now, I think I understand where they were coming from.”

She made mom think that you had an affair with her after all,” Dean connected, swallowing a small surge of bile at the thought of his father betraying his mother, which he knew could never happen. But given what his parents thought this woman was capable of, the pain that his mother must have felt seemed viscerally real to him at this moment.

It didn't last long,” John frowned. “You two were only gone for about a month.”

A month?” Dean scoffed. “Did we...?” he began, but didn't know how to ask. John turned to face his son and softened a little.

After that first week,” he began, “I used to come by after work every day to see you. Your mom would stay in the bedroom and we'd play. Sometimes eat some dinner that I'd pick up at the local diner. On the weekends, if I was available, we'd go down to the park. I took you swimming once.” He laughed then. “Your mother was so mad at me for that.”

Why would she be mad? Dean demanded, though he had a small grin on his face as his father did.

It was pretty chilly out,” John grinned at the memory. “She was going on at me for letting you outside with a wet head. But you were just so proud of yourself, that you went off the diving board and all the neat tricks you got to do.”

Really?” Dean scoffed. John nodded proudly.

You always were a brave kid,” he complimented and then shook his head. “Always ready to rush in. A little bit foolish, you ask me.”

Well come on,” Dean half whined, pleased to see his father recalling something good. “Where's the fun in sitting on the sidelines?”

Anyway,” John resumed his seat, “you were so proud of yourself that your Mom just couldn't stay mad, at either of us, I guess. We actually talked that day, quite a bit. But then I went and reminded her that I wouldn't be available the next weekend.”

Marines?” Dean asked pointlessly. But John nodded anyways.

But for some reason,” he mused, glancing upwards again, as he thought his way through things, “that seemed to be a changing point. She asked me about some other maneuvers we'd been on. I gave her the answers, but she wouldn't say why she wanted to know. The next week, she brought you home and while that was great, we also sat down and figured out a game plan to deal with this rift.”

Dean listened to his father's words, trying to be objective about it, hear it from an outsider's point of view. Which, in a way, not remembering these events, he was. But it was still his parents and either one of them in pain was something more than he could tolerate. Something clicked in his mind and he snapped his fingers once. “Dad, is it possible that Elaine used a certain time, when you were gone, as evidence? I mean, if Mom was already upset about you being gone and Elaine was as much a bitch about everything? Those type of women don't stop to always think things through. They just go for what they want. And if Mom had what she wanted, she'd probably use any means necessary...”

His father looked thoughtful for a moment and slowly nodded. “You been watching Oprah again boy?”

No!” Dean denied indignantly. He had, though this hadn't been a topic of discussion. “It just makes sense, doesn't it? And if that's what she used as proof, well, it should have been easy enough for Mom to check out. She had access to your past records as your spouse, right?”

Yeah,” John nodded. “That was just a weekend of practice maneuvers, nothing covert, so she could have requested access to it. Things were pretty lax back then.”

So Mom did the smart thing and checked out your whereabouts and found out Elaine was lying,” Dean nodded. “She was wrong so she came back.”

And maybe it was a good thing,” John sighed heavily, then chuckled at his son's wide eyes at that admission. “It brought things to a head about the other problems,” he explained. “It was tough, but your Mom and I? We came through it a hell of a lot stronger. That also,” he mused, “explains why your mom started distancing herself from Elaine. And Richard and the baby.”

See? Dean almost gloated at having been proved right. But then the sinking weight fell back onto his shoulders. “So how do we figure out... I mean, we've already pinned Elaine for a cold hearted viper. Is it really possible?” he wanted to know. It seemed his father did as well. But at the same time there was something in John's eyes. John didn't want to know, because he had his two boys to protect. If he didn't acknowledge Cordy as his daughter, it would keep her safer in this world they lived in, than if he did. But still the thought that she was his girl, he had to know that she was okay.

You know,” Dean was grinning at his father, understanding perfectly well the man's reasoning without if ever having been stated. “It would be perfectly acceptable for Uncle and favorite Cuz to check in with her. See how she's adjusting to living on her own in this big bad world. As long as we don't... stay long.”

Dean... I...” John began, but his eldest could see the yearning in his father's eye. Not for a child other than his own boys. But to see the little girl that he had loved before any of this madness had come about. Dean pushed down his own worries and hurts that automatically tried to swim up to the surface. His Dad needed this reassurance and there was no way in hell he'd detract from that. Besides, he was kinda curious about her.

We'll go tomorrow,” Dean decided, scooting down the edge of the bed to remove the phone book from the drawer of the nightstand. He flipped open to the C's and quickly found Chase. Finding her name was easy. Her phone number as well. And the address in the fine print as well. Dean turned the book and held it up to his father. “See, easy as pie.”

And just like that, it was decided.


Chapter Three- Poppa?